A Dark Cloud

A Dark Cloud Why do I cry when I don't feel like crying? Only because my pain increases daily until it became intolerable, indescribable over the days it got worse. Why do I laugh when I don't feel like laughing? Only because I feel awkward in society the most I wanted was to get away. Why do I eat, when I don't feel like eating? Only because my body wants to agonize I feel i have a very long way to go in life. Why do I drink when I don't feel like drinking? Only because I have to humidify my dead body & my tears will water the roses. Why am I here when I don't want to be here? Only because nobody wants me & I was forbidden to travel. Why do I stay when I don't want to stay? Only because I have no choice I was unaccepted & my freedom strangled. Why do I miss when I don't want to miss? Only because I want to suffer as i knew what they wanted from me. Why do I dream when I don't want to dream? Only because my dreams are dreamless they went down the drain. Why do I feel lonely when I don't want to feel lonely? Only because of my aloneness every moment changes I get scary and cannot control my nerves. Why do I phone when I don't want to phone? Only because I miss the echo of a voice when I answered that voice avoided me. Why do I wake up when I don't feel like waking up? Only because the bell rang just to relate to anybody but there was nobody. Why am I in pain when I don't feel like being in pain? Only because my pain has no end it cant stop bleeding. Why do I dress up when I don't feel like dressing up? Only because I cant stay naked winter is at the door. Why do I go out when I don't feel like going out? Only because time has to pass away & my memories have to fade astray. Why was I born, when I don't feel alive? Only because my mother helped me to stay alive. Why did I marry when I din't want a husband? Only because I was forced to get married all I wanted was to fly away as i couldn't stay. Why am I in love when I don't feel like being In love? only because I have to love anyone and our love seemed inevitable. Why do I run when I don't feel like running? Only because the doctor told me so & someone was following me, I got scared had to be gone gone away. Why am I angry when I don't want to be angry? Only because my thoughts are hurting my system was a blur I couldn't wait for my fate.. Why am I a mother when I cant live with my children? Only because I decided to run into the woods and hide, because I am getting older and maybe I can die. Therese Bacha 5/4/2013 (Win No. 4)