3 Peas In a Pod

We were a trio, three peas in a pod These days our encounters seem a bit odd Trying times came and left me solo Fertilizer for their friendship to grow Reunited and feels so good But things feel a bit different than they should So many holes have developed in the past Events I've missed from the line that I cast Reminiscing of memories that don't involve me I wish we remained the inseparable three I try and pretend that it doesn't sting When I find that I've missed most everything But the truth is I'm scarred My heart, charred My presence to them, held little regard It feels like a limbo I'll never get that low A bridge I won't cross and a place I won't go Should I keep it inside The nights that I cried For the sake of my pride Or admit I was lost And the depth of it's cost How I felt disposable, easy to toss I was the glue that brought us together They watched as I floated astray like a feather Their lives moved on and left me behind While depression and regret consumed my mind But now they returned, just like that I happily received at the drop of a hat I wish I could free these memories of abandon And be as honest and strong as the ground I'm standing One thing's for sure My intentions are pure If nothing else, I'm more mature