2am

I try so hard not to hear your quiet tortured sobs ripping through my head I try to sleep but I can still feel the weight of all your tears weighing down my pillow I try to ignore searing pain gnawing my every tender limb from the blades you took to yours I try to close my bloodshot eyes to block images of your bloodied body laying beneath once clear water I try to move but its as if Im frozen standing watching you fade away countless times, your heart never stopping I try to reach hoping to touch your weary face wanting to wipe the misery from your beautiful eyes I try to show you I exist but every time I reach for you I break the mirror and youre gone once again -ARI