Longing
Blog Posted:10/30/2010 11:21:00 AM
This goes out to my longtime Friend Christine.... you know who you are :)
What do we long for in this life.... is it money (sure it makes life easier).... is it happiness (sure it makes things easier to bear)..... Is it power (sure it makes things simpler)..... Is it achievements (sure it makes the things we’ve done seem better).... but what is it really that we "long for”..... I’ll tell you, it’s really simple actually.... we long for connection, any kind of connection. I have seen those that hate each other implicitly seek each other out for the sake of connection alone. they know that they will get a "reaction" from the other ... whatever the outcome of said encounter will be, they know that there will be at least some give and take. They will each get and the other give from the encounter. And that is all it’s about, "giving to a society as a whole and getting from that same society".
So here it is, my Friend.... from a long time ago suddenly came back into my life and turned my world upside down.... emotions that i had thought laid dormant sprang back into being. Things that I had dreamt long ago became reality, and again I could have the kind of connection..... The kinds of “reason” for going on that most people never see in their entire life.
It’s funny.... i saw a world that was bleak, dark, shadowed.... but here sprang light.... My friend that I have not seen or heard from in almost thirteen years suddenly came back into my life. .... . I called her (she is married now .... and yes with children .... that’s awesome, I don’t care who you are, children are great)!!! But here she is, we talked for about three hours and the world could not have been better.
I have lost so much in this life (I know that it could always be worse, but for the one afflicted it always seems that it’s the worst that it could be) I thought that it couldn’t reach too any lower extremes and I was right ... it couldn’t, once you hit bottom you can only go higher. Christine has been my friend for a very long time and she will continue to be so until I can no longer draw breath.
So longing, the definition is this: "Longing", an emotion characterized by a strong feeling of desire, I know that we all feel this in one way or another, but my longing was that I would ..... Somehow feel "alive" again.... now i do.
This is another edition of "Rayland’s Raves”..... This may not make sense to you but it does to me and at least one other person in this world. ..... . And as always thanks for reading.