Imaginary Love
How can it be possible to want someone so much?
to want to feel their soft, innocent touch
I want him so bad that I can’t wait to dream about him
but when I see him in person that want becomes so dim
because he is so oblivious to my lusting existence
and I realize his love can only exist in my imagination
since I can never seem to fill our inevitable distance
but my body can’t fight the urges and temptations
allowing my thoughts to wander from reality
my lust turning into an obsessive mentality
I eat, I sleep, I breathe for no one but you
I love you so much, our destiny must be true
my soul rages to be caressed in your strong arms
I'm growing impatient, I need you by my side
maybe he's nervous, I know he means me no harm
because I know he's starstruck, those feelings you can't hide
maybe he loves someone else… but wait that can't be
yet when I saw him with her I realized he betrayed me
I thought we had a connection and God was sealing our fate
but now your abandonment does nothing but fuel my hate
she was never a part of my fantasy
she's ruining the world that I built for the two of us
capturing your attention, why can't you see she's pure vanity?
turning my safe haven into a place of disgust
my brain won't sleep because I know that they're together
and I know that her “absence” will bring me great pleasure
and the look on his face when he realizes it's his lover I slew
to have him to myself I know what I must do
he is my life, my everything, there's nothing above
and he will always be my perfect, imaginary love
Copyright © Na-Shara Foster | Year Posted 2018
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