Imaginary Love

How can it be possible to want someone so much? to want to feel their soft, innocent touch I want him so bad that I can’t wait to dream about him but when I see him in person that want becomes so dim because he is so oblivious to my lusting existence and I realize his love can only exist in my imagination since I can never seem to fill our inevitable distance but my body can’t fight the urges and temptations allowing my thoughts to wander from reality my lust turning into an obsessive mentality I eat, I sleep, I breathe for no one but you I love you so much, our destiny must be true my soul rages to be caressed in your strong arms I'm growing impatient, I need you by my side maybe he's nervous, I know he means me no harm because I know he's starstruck, those feelings you can't hide maybe he loves someone else… but wait that can't be yet when I saw him with her I realized he betrayed me I thought we had a connection and God was sealing our fate but now your abandonment does nothing but fuel my hate she was never a part of my fantasy she's ruining the world that I built for the two of us capturing your attention, why can't you see she's pure vanity? turning my safe haven into a place of disgust my brain won't sleep because I know that they're together and I know that her “absence” will bring me great pleasure and the look on his face when he realizes it's his lover I slew to have him to myself I know what I must do he is my life, my everything, there's nothing above and he will always be my perfect, imaginary love