Thought I Was a Good Friend
Thought I was good friend when I was there for you every step of the way
For the years of tears & laughs & heartaches
Thought I was a good friend when you were so embarrassed to even come out of your own house because you plucked your eyebrow a little bit too much
Thought I was a good friend when you cried for a week a month straight when you broke up with your boyfriend because you cheated on him & I told you to take a break & focus on yourself
Thought I was a good friend when you picked out the best dress for the dance but was the person honest enough to tell you it was little bit too small
Thought I was a good friend when we stuck with each other after every argument and spoke to each other right afterwards...the very next week
Thought I was a good friend when we partied a little too much & I was there to hold your hair while I had to suffocate myself with the terrible smells coming from your damn vomit
Thought I was a good friend when I give you advice after every mistake over & over & over again & you ignore it & do the exact opposite
When I try to help you, but you’d rather do things your own way
Make your own decisions because yes, I am a good friend but you want to hear what you wanna hear & figure things for yourself but have me here
Be there to just listen & not speak because If I say a word..it would be useless
Thought I was a good friend when I tried to tell you a heads up, but you did not wanna listen
Tired of the countless tries to help out a friend because I thought I was a good friend but if I shut up than I’m gonna win the award
To be a good friend I guess you have to shhh...& stay quiet because deep down your worth & opinion is not appreciated
The first one to care & apologize first after an argument is tiring
I have better things to do right than protect the people that I love around me and care for the ones I love the most
So I guess I thought I was a good friend but I will no longer think that
Everything I do right, is wrong
Everything I say is “blunt”
Every time I take 2 steps forward, you push me 5 steps back
So I’m done
It’s fine
When the days are dark, the clouds are grey, and you’re looking down & out for that friend you will have no one left & no one to turn to
You will learn because I thought I was a good friend
Day after day, you just can't anymore
It’s okay. Not everything lasts forever
Friendship is just convenient for you
Not being selfish
Not being petty
Just being simple
And sitting back & doing my own damn thing
Copyright © Veronica Castaneda | Year Posted 2016
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