Gone
It's cold
The night air
Stinging my skin
And It burns me
chills me
Simultaneously
Brings me back
Am I still standing here..
Am I still waiting..?
It's coming back to me
Flooding back really
And I wish I could slow it all down
Stop every single
Neuron
Every syaptic response
Just make it stop
Just make it...stop
I can still feel her
See her
Smell her hair
Her perfume
And every molecule of me
Clinging ever so tightly
To the memory of her
Tightly to her scent
Engrained in my nostrils
I close my eyes
And I cant help it
I see her
I smile at her
And a tear fights its way down
My ever so cold cheeks
She's talking
She always had the most awesome teeth
The most beautiful face
I look at her and every touch
Every kiss stolen from her
Every word crafted
To capture her ever so elusive heart
Every unsheltered moment of passion...of perversions we so wholeheartedly indulged
Fills every nook every cranny that is my grey matter
I remember it like its the first time
All of it a-new
Her walk, her smile, her touch
I revel in the memory
I would live in that memory
I would give anything to meet her again
For the first time
To see her walk toward me
Smile at me, say all the words
We loved to say
Just once more..to feel
I can make out her words now
But I wish I couldn't
I try to drown it out
I try to hide in the
Crevices of my mind
But the memory finds me
And this is happening
Every word
Every syllable
Breaks a piece of me
And burns me
Yet still I remember every minute
Every bloody second
Every scorching syllable and consonant
I can't fight it
I can't slow it
I can't stop it..
And I can't...I just cant..
I want it to stop
I want her to just smile and say
It's all going to be okay
Just once more
So so badly once more
To hear her voice once more
To touch her face just once more
Feel her presence
Look at that blank expression
She used to give me and laugh
A happy laugh a contented laugh..just once more
But its done....she's gone she left me here and
She's gone..
Copyright © Arnold Macharia | Year Posted 2016
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