I Wish...
Digging, ripping, catching then slipping
Focus so much on my hatred that I fail to see your good.
Kicking, screaming, wishing, dreaming
My heart is lost inside my thoughts, I wish I understood.
Why I attack you with doubt, why I just cannot believe,
That when you get close or show that you care
I insist that you really deceive.
Dizzy, weary, distorted hearing
Certain when I'm hurting, but uncertain when I'm loved.
Guessing, wishing, aiming then missing
I manifest my misery; chase the let downs like a drug.
Is there really a feeling called love? A feeling that cannot be lost?
Sounds pretty good but for 32 years
It's a line that I haven't crossed.
That which begins has to end
The end begins that which again
My spirit is beaten, is tired and weakend
I pray to the sky once again.
More wishes I toss at the clouds
Alone I can say them out loud
And all that I ask is the strength to get past
The burdens of self I hold now.
Copyright © Charles Raverta | Year Posted 2006
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