Tears
So many times I have fought them
Why is this time so different?
I used to be a pro at keeping them at bay
Yet here I am today
Fighting to keep a float
They are taking all my strength away
Why can’t they see?
I don’t want them
I never want to let them fall
They are fighting even harder
Day by day
Minute by minute
Moment to moment
They only get stronger
As I get weaker
I really don’t know what to do
I don’t know how to stop them
But I don’t want them
Why won’t they listen?
Just go away
Let me get through today
Build up my strength
So I can go on fighting them
And keeping them away
I am afraid to even look my best friend in the eye
Because I know if she sees them
What she will say
She has said it so many times
I just don’t want to hear it
Especially not today
She tells me they are healthy
&
They are essential
I don’t want to believe it
In my mind all they do is get me into trouble
Yet she isn’t the only one who has said it
Someone else has said it too
She even said that it will happen
And here I am
Trying not to fall apart
Fighting to stay strong
I know she can’t predict the future
No one can
So I guess it can only mean one thing
She knows me too well
If it were anyone else
I would be freaking out right now
Instead I am praying for the strength
To fight
Not let them out
For the first time I hope
She isn’t right
I really don’t want them
As I said before
Yet they are trying hard
To fall
&
I feel like I may be fighting
A losing battle
Yet I will never quit fighting
If I have my way
They will never fall
I refuse to just let them
Out any door
Front or back
It doesn’t matter because
I don’t want them out
I need them to be locked away
All these
Tears
They just get in the way
Getting me in trouble
I never wanted them in anyway
Hopefully they will just go away
Copyright © Jeanna York | Year Posted 2014
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