Tears

So many times I have fought them Why is this time so different? I used to be a pro at keeping them at bay Yet here I am today Fighting to keep a float They are taking all my strength away Why can’t they see? I don’t want them I never want to let them fall They are fighting even harder Day by day Minute by minute Moment to moment They only get stronger As I get weaker I really don’t know what to do I don’t know how to stop them But I don’t want them Why won’t they listen? Just go away Let me get through today Build up my strength So I can go on fighting them And keeping them away I am afraid to even look my best friend in the eye Because I know if she sees them What she will say She has said it so many times I just don’t want to hear it Especially not today She tells me they are healthy & They are essential I don’t want to believe it In my mind all they do is get me into trouble Yet she isn’t the only one who has said it Someone else has said it too She even said that it will happen And here I am Trying not to fall apart Fighting to stay strong I know she can’t predict the future No one can So I guess it can only mean one thing She knows me too well If it were anyone else I would be freaking out right now Instead I am praying for the strength To fight Not let them out For the first time I hope She isn’t right I really don’t want them As I said before Yet they are trying hard To fall & I feel like I may be fighting A losing battle Yet I will never quit fighting If I have my way They will never fall I refuse to just let them Out any door Front or back It doesn’t matter because I don’t want them out I need them to be locked away All these Tears They just get in the way Getting me in trouble I never wanted them in anyway Hopefully they will just go away