Thoughts
Do I listen to my doubts, my fears
Or do I note my hopes, my desires
Do I listen to that little voice in me
That tells me to stop being so crazy
Or do I give way to the little thought I could make it reality
Just maybe, it could happen to me
Do I kick myself down when I wonder what its all for
Or kick myself up the ass knowing I can reach far
Pick myself back up, till again I’ll be feeling good
Do I wallow in self-pity, when something doesn’t go my way
Or pity the people that said no, knowing they’ll regret it someday
Do I prove people wrong and prove myself right
Or do I fall down and lose that fight?
Will I keep going and face each problem, tackle each obstacle
Or will it become too much, that I give in, I fail
Will I keep belief, keep faith and stay confident
Or will I believe those who say I can’t, that I’m arrogant
Will I take it a step at a time and be patient
Or beat myself up wanting self-fulfilment
Will I let my insecurities get in my way
Or will they make me persevere, make me stay
Make me more focused, more determined
Or will I break
Will I go forward, even after a knock-back
Or will it stop right there, because I can’t take that?
How am I to know something’s right
Or something’s wrong
How am I to know what I can’t cope with
Or when I can be strong
How am I to control my destiny
When sometimes I can’t control me
How am I suppose to know what to listen to
My heart or my mind
When sometimes there telling me something so different
I can’t decide
Gut feeling, gut instinct, to make a decision
A sensible move, or risk-taking?
How am I to know?
Will I get to where I want?
What do I listen to?
Can I struggle on?
I believe I can, I know I can
Have my up and down days
But I’ve got to tell myself
That I’ll do it my way
Got to take the bad with the good
And the good with the bad
And you know what,
I’ll be having the last laugh!
Copyright © Rachael Turnage | Year Posted 2006
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