Alone
Always alone
That is my destiny
I’ve never really had someone to have my back
Other than family and friends
But no man has ever truly loved me
I’ve asked why several times
Some people are not meant to live
Happily ever after and
I’m one of those people
Everything I do is never right
I have a pleasing demeanor
I’m not nagging nor degrading
I’m neither confrontational nor demanding
I have a great sense of humor
I’m honest, open and affectionate
I listen, I cater, and I can communicate effectively
I’m well rounded, I have many interests
I can have an intelligent conversation with anyone
Love the Lord
ALWAYS
I’m loyal, I don’t step out
I’m a great lover
I cook, I clean, and I pay my own bills
I'm just looking for
A companion and best friend for me
Is that to much to ask?
As I’m writing this I realize
That if I can’t be appreciated for whom I am
Then FORGET THEM!!
I’m one helluva woman, dynamic in every way
And men should be so blessed to be with me
I will always be me, I like who I am inside
Mentally I'm in tip top shape
Open and ready for whatever is in my future
Every now and then it’s good to remind yourself
I LOVE ME!!!
Just like any relationship with another person
My spirit also has to be nurtured
And sometimes it takes me feeling
Emotionally drained for me to see that
I’ll continue to have friends
I will not deny my body
That simple pleasure
But I have realized I can
Keep it from getting emotional
Ever Since He disappeared
I told myself never again
That’s why I feel so safe now
In the physical contacts I’m in
One is committed to someone else
He feeds my body very well
With a bit of emotion, but no mental
And the other one well feeds me
Physically and at times mentally
But not emotionally
And that’s cool
Because I don’t allow myself to feel with him
I enjoy being with him, he’s good
And the mental food for me
Is something I can’t live without
Yes I know and understand
No one will have the best of me
Without my heart, but they don’t complain
And at the moment neither am I
I’m built to be in love
My heart was meant to belong to a mate
I know this because there is always
A sense of being alone…
Even when I thought I had someone
No one has taken the time to nurture
My soul, mind, body and spirit
I don’t worry, I’ll get my needs met
One way or the other
If nothing else, I’m very patient
It’s just not my time yet
Until then…… I’ll just be alone
Copyright © Mawiyah Ford | Year Posted 2005
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