Alone

Always alone That is my destiny I’ve never really had someone to have my back Other than family and friends But no man has ever truly loved me I’ve asked why several times Some people are not meant to live Happily ever after and I’m one of those people Everything I do is never right I have a pleasing demeanor I’m not nagging nor degrading I’m neither confrontational nor demanding I have a great sense of humor I’m honest, open and affectionate I listen, I cater, and I can communicate effectively I’m well rounded, I have many interests I can have an intelligent conversation with anyone Love the Lord ALWAYS I’m loyal, I don’t step out I’m a great lover I cook, I clean, and I pay my own bills I'm just looking for A companion and best friend for me Is that to much to ask? As I’m writing this I realize That if I can’t be appreciated for whom I am Then FORGET THEM!! I’m one helluva woman, dynamic in every way And men should be so blessed to be with me I will always be me, I like who I am inside Mentally I'm in tip top shape Open and ready for whatever is in my future Every now and then it’s good to remind yourself I LOVE ME!!! Just like any relationship with another person My spirit also has to be nurtured And sometimes it takes me feeling Emotionally drained for me to see that I’ll continue to have friends I will not deny my body That simple pleasure But I have realized I can Keep it from getting emotional Ever Since He disappeared I told myself never again That’s why I feel so safe now In the physical contacts I’m in One is committed to someone else He feeds my body very well With a bit of emotion, but no mental And the other one well feeds me Physically and at times mentally But not emotionally And that’s cool Because I don’t allow myself to feel with him I enjoy being with him, he’s good And the mental food for me Is something I can’t live without Yes I know and understand No one will have the best of me Without my heart, but they don’t complain And at the moment neither am I I’m built to be in love My heart was meant to belong to a mate I know this because there is always A sense of being alone… Even when I thought I had someone No one has taken the time to nurture My soul, mind, body and spirit I don’t worry, I’ll get my needs met One way or the other If nothing else, I’m very patient It’s just not my time yet Until then…… I’ll just be alone