The Words I Never Said
Words never said
I remember the day we moved away
but I still had a lot to say.
Even though I knew I was oceans away
and would probably not check in everyday.
But all the words in life I will write
will never make you see the new day’s light.
Sunrise will be beautiful and sometimes bright
But now it will always feel not quite right.
You won’t be there to see my son grow up
and teach him lessons about life when he shows up.
The day will start without your prayer
for your family, so far and near.
Although I wish for just one more: “Hi”
God knew the pain that made you cry
and it’s hard because, you know why?
I never got to say “Goodbye”.
It is your birthday today and mom, I pray
that we will remember you on the 1st of May.
Your house is now quiet and no songs to sing
Instead, some flowers to your grave, we will bring.
“In loving memory “is what they’ll say
but this won’t take my pain away.
One last birthday I will never get
thinking of the words I never said.
My emotions are all bottled up inside of me
away from people and the world to see.
Regret might weigh on my heart
when I realize I won’t get that restart .
You’ll be the question mark behind my “Why?”
You will be a teardrop when I cry.
I’ll hope that you’ll forgive me for not being by your side
when I received the news that you sadly died.
Saying goodbye, though you're not there.
but I believe your last words to me were clear.
I will stay strong and will not dispear
for I had a mother that was very dear.
Rest in peace, my precious mother
the time will come when we’ll see each other.
A candle is lit in your honor today
and memories shared will always stay.
Copyright © Regardt Coetzee | Year Posted 2023
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