Confession
Every night when it gets dark and
the whole city sleeps.
I stay awake just to think of you,
I think of all the times when we were together & happy,
I think of all the words you said & the scars you left,
I think of all the chances I gave you & how you never grasped it,
I think of you and it eventually starts aching
inside my heart.
Maybe things could’ve been totally different,
If only you wouldn’t have crawled back to your old habits.
You and I could’ve been together,
Watching the moon holding each other.
Saying how much I’m scared to be apart from you,
And wishing to live in that moment forever.
But here lies the unpleasant reality that I’m facing everyday and
The most grievous part is I can’t take it anymore,
The voices inside my head are getting louder.
I can’t be the same old girl I was before you left,
You changed me : you shattered me, you made me hollow and you killed me from the inside.
The things you put me through is unbearable.
No one knows how it feels,
No one knows what it’s doing to me.
If only you’d have loved me like I did then
Maybe I’d have feel less lonely & lesser pain.
If only you’d have thought about me then,
You’d have never cause me neither
Let anyone else cause me this much of hurt.
- will you ever be able to feel this ?
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