I'll Never
I just realized something, and it hit me really hard deep down into my core, that I will never experience certain things with you, and I don’t know why I couldn’t see this before
I believe that I was reliving all of those beautiful memories that we once shared, and not thinking about things that I would miss that would never happen and in that moment my soul was bared
Tears started flowing down my cheeks and I tried to wipe them away, but then I just accepted them as my pain escaping from memories that I never got to taste
I’ll never hear sweet, seductive whispers into my ear as you lie beside me in the night, I’ll never feel your arms wrapped around me comforting me through my fright
There will never be silent moments shared looking into one another’s eyes, transferring our feelings and emotions to one another through the transcendence of time
There will be no pillow talk, laughter within our bed, sheets wrapped around us so tightly wound together with my legs wrapped around your legs
There will be no grazing of your fingertips so softly tracing the lines on my skin, teasing me so seductively making a path to the places you want to go that will never have an end
There will be no holding of each other’s hands as we make love so deeply, so true, there will be no exertion, no lying with each other in a state of bliss after we both have witnessed the truth
The truth that what we share there is nothing that has ever felt this way, the way that we melt into one another we were sculpted into our own shape
There will never be a moment as I lie there cradled inside of your strong arms, and feeling nothing but your love that is so real and genuine surrounding me to the point that it turns me on
There will never be an epiphany had where I know I was meant to be here in this moment in time just with you, I know that I will never feel this alive at least not without you
There will never be that dream of you just running your fingers through my hair and looking so deeply into my eyes that you can see into my soul…. I swear
There will never be a love that could ever come close to or replace what I once had/dreamed of having with you, and the realization of sadness in this thought is knowing that there is nothing that I can do.
Copyright © Amanda Kinzer | Year Posted 2025
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