Being In Love With a Caged Heart
So he told you he loved you, you’re confused but happy knowing he’s amazing.
You ask yourself why he’d even consider loving you but you can’t think of any reason to love yourself. So you just say you love him too, yes you have the feelings but your not sure it’s him or just the fear of being hurt again. You tend to smile every time he texts you, your heart begins to skip when he’s around but tends to break when he’s not talking to you. He calls you beautiful and pretty, he says he loves your eyes and smile your swarmed with butterflies. You’re in love with him but just too broken to accept it. Maybe he’s in love with you too, i mean sometimes you say you can feel his arms around your waist just holding you an pulling you as close as possible. This feeling is what you’ve wanted, it’s everything? So why can’t you just accept his love? Explain the feelings you feel on this blank page as if you were writing a letter to a friend.
Are you afraid? Is this not what you’ve been longing for over the years? Don’t you think he’s the one you need?
I’m afraid of this love, because once i admit i’m in love with him my heart may crumble. I don’t know the way to describe the way i’m feeling so this explanation is all over the place. My heart may be his but is still in it’s cage afraid to move, with fear of him leaving knowing everyone leaves. I say i love him too knowing i truly do, he’s everything and more to me, yet i’m running into the darkness so he won’t know where to find my heart. Losing my grip from the control, knowing every moment i see him the swarm of butterflies will knock my hand causing me to lose this tight grip i’ve held for so long. This whole thing is everything I wanted but yes i’m a little too broken to admit my love for him. I know not to live in fear but he makes me complete an fills almost every crack of my shattered heart even though it’s hidden in the darkness in this cage. Overreacting? Yes maybe but overreacting to protect a heart that has been tortured enough from the past. So no i can’t say i’m in love with him until i know he’ll stay, yes i think he’s the one i need and I’m so afraid to be in love. So here’s my explanation on this blank page that was filled with me admitting my love and putting this whole thing at risk
Copyright © Sav Hester | Year Posted 2019
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