When I'M Gone
Sitting in silence
Pretty much completely awkward
Looking around what seems to be an unfamiliar room
Finally you caught my gaze
Our eyes met
Innocent you could have said
You bit your bottom lip
In the back of my mind all innocence had then disappeared
I remembered what you said about that, it was supposed to be a hint
I chose to totally ignore it
I rolled my eyes and left your stare
You let out your breath with a loud gasp
And then met my eyes again
To be honest, you looked disappointed
I mumbled, "I'm sorry..."
You didn't respond
My mind flashed with images of the previous night,
so close, under the sheets, hands tightly together
started talking, switched to sharing what we had always wanted
Breathing heavy, proving this is true love, then all was quiet.
My memory halted, and my conscious mind returned.
We were still sitting, staring, thinking.
You weren't looking at me anymore
Then you spoke, "You shouldn't be sorry, don't say that."
I kept thinking,
I know I apologize for things I can't change.
It seems stupid, but it shows you that I wish I could change them for you.
This is the one situation, I can't change, but would give anything to have the
chance.
My thoughts steadied, and I was watching you.
You eyes were right there with mine
And tears were welling up in them, both of us shaking
We moved closer to each other
I kissed you on the forehead
That small innocent smirk you love appeared on my face
I glanced up at you, just as the tears began rolling down your face
I kissed you softly
And at that moment we both realized,
In a year things wouldn't change...
though I would be gone.
Copyright © Sara Paschette | Year Posted 2008
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