An Autumn Leaf
You never let me say no
But I'm afraid I must insist
For you see
I never wanted to exist
And all these years I've struggled in your petty little games
Seen something pure inside me
Turn toxic in vicious flames
And I don't know who to blame
I feel so empty
Less certain of anything than ever
And I don't think it even matters
I am defeated
I have been beaten
I'm eating dirt
You keep beating
Anyway
I never should have been born
But tonight
Tonight he's coming to the door
And I will finally be free
After 29 years of yearning
I will embrace death as a lover
And drift away quietly
Like an autumn leaf
Copyright © Zak Whatever | Year Posted 2018
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