An Autumn Leaf

You never let me say no But I'm afraid I must insist For you see I never wanted to exist And all these years I've struggled in your petty little games Seen something pure inside me Turn toxic in vicious flames And I don't know who to blame I feel so empty Less certain of anything than ever And I don't think it even matters I am defeated I have been beaten I'm eating dirt You keep beating Anyway I never should have been born But tonight Tonight he's coming to the door And I will finally be free After 29 years of yearning I will embrace death as a lover And drift away quietly Like an autumn leaf