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Madeleine Leidy Poem
As time goes by we discover such a diagnose for any flaw,
Is this what it comes to in the end of times?
Where any excuse can get time reduced?
Such good pills can be shoved in you , so ones around can bare you
As if Dr. oz , can cure you,
we believe all these lies , as we lie ourselves , most of all i completely fib to myself , i couch myself to self sabotage, i make my tumors my excuse ,
you start noticing things that weren't there for years , such as a friend that spread her legs for your lover , such insanity when you tell your own self , i should have done better ,
such cruelty the world faces , as i write such words thinking they have any meaning when others have to watch their families raped , and slaughtered ,
after watching news about the world , i stare myself down ,and realize my issue is i have only one relationship with my disabled self
i refuse to label a diagnosis when its just individualistic
Copyright © Madeleine Leidy | Year Posted 2016
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Madeleine Leidy Poem
There is a man who sits still and counts me numbers ,
He had the nerve to stare me down to put me under ,
such deep eyes of sincerity indeed ,
There was no caution for him deliberately making me crazy ,
i trusted one who i thought was my equal ,
all i have done is pleaded to not be this fickle,
Someone such as this , fed on my heart ,
how would you know such a enemy , if you fell once again to your own stupidity,
one can be in rapture , from one to ten ,
this unrequited love is something i can no longer bare.
i try too hard ,
i love too deep ,
no i will not regret anything ,
i try to hard ,
i love too deep ,
no i will not regret anything
There was a lady who wore her lizards,
there was no excuse for her sybarite actions,
Her thoughts so buried ,
you could feel she forbidden herself to breathe,
she had no caution she deliberately made me crazy ,
i gave her my heart ,
she drained my veins dry ,
such a lady wasnt ever my enemy ,
such love i was shown freely ,
this rapture i was in , was something i was grateful of knowing ,
something i thought was equal ,
but such plans where to neglect me,
so she can have her tranquility ,
was only a platonic love something i can no longer bare.
I try to hard,
i love too deep ,
no i will not regret anything
i try to hard ,
i love too deep ,
no i refuse to regret any of these
Copyright © Madeleine Leidy | Year Posted 2016
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Madeleine Leidy Poem
i feel true in prayer when i say gods name ,
but i have this one intruder who invades my dreams ,
i feel hypnotized and paralyzed as these years go on ,
i feel truly raped in my mind ,
this is a trap of ongoing circle of sleep paralysis ,
i get told to endure all this pain ,
this is not god that tests ,
this is satan trying to claim my death ,
pushing me on a ledge to no further ,
i once heard a preacher say god took my loved one for his own favor ,
but such things i refuse to believe,
a preacher as usual twisting true words ,
considering the man in red is the one who murders
Copyright © Madeleine Leidy | Year Posted 2016
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Madeleine Leidy Poem
its not you its me , its not you it is me ,
we all find this a trick ,
but if you where me you'd understand in what makes me tick ,
no, its not you its me , it is all me ,
this is no lie , this is nor line ,
we try to play make believe , putting on a front that shouldn't ever be shown ,
i try to hide my pain ,
its not , you its me,
i hope one day you notice how true these words are ,
i am the roots to a tree , i do not grow up , but only feel dirt is all over me , stuck in the dark , stuck in my head , most of all each day i feel i cant breath,
i try to understand whats up or down , but only misery twirls in this dumb blonde head ,
and all I'm fed is unrealistic optimism ,
its is a paste that fills my mouth so eventually no words are allowed to come out,I'm not one to seek misery loves company , if one thing i know, i prefer to be alone so no one sees how much i am suffering ,
its not you its me i hope you can see ,
i am not near this physical form ,
looking in the mirror just makes me hate myself more ,
when i know I'm being looked at the more i know i exist ,
its not you its is me ,
for such reasons you do look as if you can love me
Copyright © Madeleine Leidy | Year Posted 2016
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