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Heather Angel Poem
Is all relationships complicated or is it just mine? Or is complicated even the word I'm looking for that's unknown just like my thoughts n questions I torture myself wit!! Am I good enough will I ever be? Is it because this is my first real true sober relationship ever two years hopefully many more to come but my mind is filled with several questions that I have no answers to aggravated n confused I am!Wishing I knew everything there is to know about relationships because one minute everything is fine the next were arguing saying hurtful things or doing things we shouldn't do or say leaving one of us feeling broken lost confused hurt many things!! Why is it that we don't think before we do or say anything?? I'm far from perfect and innocent but can't change it or take it back but I'm also not the type to give up so easily especially if I truly care about the person n love them more than nethng n this world more than i loved anyone.. At times I throw random weird awkward crazy questions at myself like If I would have known that relationship/relationships MUST come with a handbook or guide,rule book I would have just stayed single.. lol not really .. I don't kno if it's cuz I'm new to this or what but I don't understand it all I don't kno how to express myself or describe something so simple and easy like"My life right now for example" Two years ago I had to do what was best for me so I up and left my home town moved three hours away not knowing anyone but two people but then I found the love of my life my fiance he saved me helped,changed me".. But I just can't seem to find the right words to explain,express, describe anything at all. Does this make me complicated what?? I'm scared terrified I don't want to lose what have but being complicated I just don't kno
Copyright © Heather Angel | Year Posted 2017
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Heather Angel Poem
These r words from a chick that don't kno the words or how to explain nthn but she loves like no other n fights for what she wants n more.. My phone in my hand earbuds in listening to music it's the only thing that helps me escape from all the Bs in life.. I'm searching for much more than my mind can handle I'm not Good with expressing or showing my feelings or emotions!! But what I do know is since day one I knew yu was the one and only for me n that I had to be wit yu here we r almost two years later, I've failed at many things n let yu down but I try every single day n night to prove and show yu how much yu mean to but truth is I don't kno how it's either I get really scared or nervous thinkn yu won't believe me or I will mess up so I don't say anything at all I try tho.. I wish I was everything yu want or dreamed of changes I will make for yu any time.. You mean so much to me my love for yu I have never felt for anyone.. the thought of being without yu ugh I don't ever I culdnt I don't ever want to if only i culd show yu how i feel about yu how much I love yu then maybe yu wuld kno this isn't no game to me!! Trust is an issue wit both of us n I'm truly sorry only if I had the answers for why ppl do n say things they don't mean without thinking my heart hurts so bad I feel like yu gave up on us hopefully I'm wrong cuz if I have to n yu Will let me i want to spend the rest of my life proving my love and all to yu!! The smile yu put on my face the warm fuzzy wanted loved feeling my body/ insides get I kno the yur the one n only for me hopefully yu feel the same... feeling lost confused I don't like but I'm all yurs so believe n trust me tears that I'm shedding for yu even tho yu don't see them why because we screwed up a time or two before sorry isn't good enough but my heart is all Achilles Harkleroad..
Copyright © Heather Angel | Year Posted 2017
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Heather Angel Poem
Before I met you I had no clue on how to be loved anything about love or anything in that matter for years I thought I couldn't be loved and that the only thing that loved me was drugs but when I met you everything changed!! I searched and begged and cried you name it for God to send me an Angel two months later you showed up! Not knowing what was ahead of us we just went with it!! Feeling many different ways never felt before it was the most amazing feelings ever only way I know how to explain it all is you took your time actually cared and and showed me there was more to life then using and that i could be loved and much more than i ever imagined.. I look back on my life from now and two years ago im amazed!! Never thought I could live with out drugs or be loved but you my Angel my love my heart and soul proved to me as I sit here thinking and looking back all I can say is wow totally not going back to that life style.. I found a new drug that's you a human being a person my fiance!! So when people say changes can't or don't work believe me they work I'm living proof but it took a year or two for me to realize that the life style I was liven wasn't me I could do better and sure enough but I had to move three hours away from my home town cut ties with people but thats okay don't be afraid of changes in still a working progress. Thanks to God and prayers and changes..
Copyright © Heather Angel | Year Posted 2017
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Heather Angel Poem
Baby, with you is where I want to be, in your arms is where im happy and feel safe and secure your arms takes me places I have never been!!! Baby, your all I need and want you complete me in many ways Baby it's just me and you against the world!!! One Love
Copyright © Heather Angel | Year Posted 2019
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