Complicated
Is all relationships complicated or is it just mine? Or is complicated even the word I'm looking for that's unknown just like my thoughts n questions I torture myself wit!! Am I good enough will I ever be? Is it because this is my first real true sober relationship ever two years hopefully many more to come but my mind is filled with several questions that I have no answers to aggravated n confused I am!Wishing I knew everything there is to know about relationships because one minute everything is fine the next were arguing saying hurtful things or doing things we shouldn't do or say leaving one of us feeling broken lost confused hurt many things!! Why is it that we don't think before we do or say anything?? I'm far from perfect and innocent but can't change it or take it back but I'm also not the type to give up so easily especially if I truly care about the person n love them more than nethng n this world more than i loved anyone.. At times I throw random weird awkward crazy questions at myself like If I would have known that relationship/relationships MUST come with a handbook or guide,rule book I would have just stayed single.. lol not really .. I don't kno if it's cuz I'm new to this or what but I don't understand it all I don't kno how to express myself or describe something so simple and easy like"My life right now for example" Two years ago I had to do what was best for me so I up and left my home town moved three hours away not knowing anyone but two people but then I found the love of my life my fiance he saved me helped,changed me".. But I just can't seem to find the right words to explain,express, describe anything at all. Does this make me complicated what?? I'm scared terrified I don't want to lose what have but being complicated I just don't kno
Copyright © Heather Angel | Year Posted 2017
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