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Phatt Matt Poem
I used to smile
every time you came back home
I never knew
that to you
I was just being clueless
I thought I was your little brother
but I had to wonder
when I heard
the truth by uncle
that you are an imposter
there was no other
you had to go and pretend
how long have you known ?
No ! I won’t be fooled again
you should have told me yourself
but no it is the end
your little brother don’t exist
now stay I insist
you can say that I am cold
yet it was from me a life you stole
sorry mama I love you
but this betrayer has got to go
never mind that I’ll hit the road …
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I watching the sunset somewhere
oh my but it does look lovely
if I were a criminal
the police will probably bug me
darling I’m coming home to you
so come and hug me
go on sleep my wife
I’ll watch over you
because I am your hubby
I’m glad I promised
I will be rid of the bubbly
yes it brought quite a bit in me
the good ,the bad
and the ugly
no guts
no glory
this is the end of the story
M.CUPIDO
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I ventured into us
Without any outcome in mind
I was content at the time
Happiness was the bottom line
Nothing could prepare me for this
The fire was put out of our bliss
How did we come to this
Unbearable twist
It is impossible to know
That love once did exist
Caught
in the confusion and mist
It is hard to forge
any reasonable outcome
Which way is the right way
A clouded judgment
could be detrimental
It is so hard and my heart ache
Lord why did you forsake
Is it something I did in the past?
Is something I miss at present?
I can't see clearly
My heart is too broken
I'm teary eyed
I was brave
to suggest separation
The truth is I am terrified
I was dumb and bold
But your grudge
is just stone cold
I tried
to resuscitate
a talk with you
It was in vain
All listening
supply was cut off
Spending my time in silence
It feels to difficult
It beats strained words
to an unwilling ear
In the past I never minded
the odd behavior
here and there
But now protecting
my interest
will be my resolve
Our disagreement
seem to pile up
It seems never solved
It's way more than pride
It hurts inside
I have been through struggling
This is internal suffering
How long will I be
subjecting myself to this hurt
I was brave enough
to embrace the fire
It feels too late for me
because I got burnt
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Such soft and tender hands
see your parents
smile at you at first glance
We were here
with your first words
we were here
when you first start to crawl
we caught you
when you had your first fall
and then you learned to walk
We are here for you
since you learned to ride bicycle
don’t worry when you fall
just dust yourself off
and try again
Baby steps
is all you need to take
in achieving things in life
one step at a time babba
you can hurry to your pappa
I am here for you
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Human nature is the cause
we can never ascend
but I want to go to the realm
a place much more
scary than I would like to pretend
a place where angels
and demons are in conflict
to me it would be
a weird tourist attraction
I won’t be taking photos
I would want to be
part of the action
of course the battle
would only be for the divine
that is why
I fight them in my mind
what if one day
it would materialize
a feat to be realized
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Through strength
I found love
in time I’ll find what I was looking for
I feel like a man at a bar
that has been there for too long
it is going to take a lot
to drag me away from the counter
there is nothing that a thousand men can ever do
I will fight for you
listen to my heart every time you want to run away
I am doing time
taking my mind right back to you
when I hear that whistle blow
it is those wonders
when you listen to meddling rain
let me love you
heart of darkness is brought to the light with your love
I know your troubled heart let me blow your cares away
M.CUPIDO
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It’s all in my head
I think about it over again
When you three are all
Older and with friends
I wish every day you wake up
That it is a clear blue sky
I know you have wondered why
I never shared in your lives
Yes, me too
I can’t take it
I can’t shake it
One day when you wake up
I’ll have to say goodbye
But while I’m still alive
Rest assured
If GOD is above me
He gives me strength
For all you know I’ll provide and love you three
Until the day I close my eyes
Thoughts of a father
These feelings I harbour
Stored away in an emotional jar
Viewing it now on the display cabinet
It is real freedom of scars…
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Dear fate
I’m writing a letter
so that you come
take me faster
in whatever form
a lot of fights
a lot of scars
a lot of ups
a lot of downs
mama prepare for homecoming
I coming home
with the midnight express
I’ll be on my way…
there is nothing here for me anymore
only that I miss you more
the last time I go to sleep
will be the day I awake
and see you again
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It has been twelve years
Every one of those years
I have been turned away
by officials of the city
Twelve long years
of being on the housing waiting list
Being the only breadwinner
Times got tougher
To my children I imagine
that to them
I am a failure in many ways
No where for me to seek refuge
The only way is inside my head could convince me otherwise
What do you say to a
man living with cerebral palsy?
Who has to proof himself on all fronts
Spiritually it becomes draining
in a one room flat
He becomes out of touch
with those immediate loved ones
Wife then kids or vice versa
All freedoms are compromised
Specially the kids
As a physical impaired man
I am not much affected
Considering my boarding school days
It becomes tough
when it is an all female club
And I am the only male
and physically impaired
Mentally the impact takes its toll
There is a heaviness within me
I cannot seem to find an outlet
That's why I'm living on a page
Out of control
I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liars chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
If you see me smiling
It is a front
this is how I deal with my pain
Many second job attempts fail
I am beginning to doubt myself
I sometimes stare at myself in the mirror
My wife's take on it
is that I am full of myself
That may be the case
It runs much deeper than that
Maybe I am taking her
too much along with me
But I can't help it we are close knit family
The Lord has blessed me
With three daughters
They could write
a book about me
one day if they are aspiring authors
along with my wife as their editor
Poetry is my only sanctuary
My world in black and white
I silently wish for all those material things
Things that is out my grasp of understanding
Why some of us
gets it easy and others hard
Is there a lesson
to us that are disenfranchised
or are we nearing our expiry date?
Hey, it is just a thought
along with my perception of things
Who gets to build us up?
When you hit rock bottom
What is the bottom line?
What if we get to that helpline too late?
What will they say in your obituary
Were you worthwhile living with
Or were you known to be a prick
Only time will tell
Poetry is my only sanctuary
My world in black and white
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On the run, again
Being chased by rogue police
I got to protest
That I’m innocent
I’m a law-abiding criminal
I mean citizen
On the last exit to wonderland
I ended up all banged up in hospital
After this constant battle
With guns and knives
Another one bites the dust
On my hospital bed, I’m reminiscing
Of how many friend’s I lost
To this urban war
I thank God
That I don’t drink Bourbon anymore
Side effects lets me land face first on the floor
So, that chapter of my life I had to close the door
I’m currently checking my final score
I’m not going back to the lab again
I went from vegetable to a surgical guinea pig
Talk about Frankenstein’s worse nightmare
I’m out again now you can stop and stare…
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