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Heather Main Poem
We are all children of GOD
We all sin
But this is what I find really odd
What kind of world are we living in
If being an abuser or rapist is the same as being gay
I don’t like that at all
What is wrong with the world today
I can see some some one goin to prison for an 8 ball
But being dogged out cause of who u fall in love with is crazy
How can being homosexual be a crime
Im bisexual and I feel that maybe
GOD does chose who we fall in love with and the place and the time
Some killers get off scott free
And the prisoners have it made in the shade
This is not how life should be
Its not fair
I am a Christian so does it make it wrong that I question a lot of what is in the big book
Just take a good hard look
Around gas is up homeless people are fighting to stay afloat
War is going on If this is how it is always goin to be I don’t want to be the boat
I don’t understand how people can vote
And then we end up in so much debt
And crises bills have not been met
The world is going to hell
But don’t think I am just cuz I am bi
Dealers want their stuff to sell
And then wonder why
They go to jail with out bail
U don’t go to prison for being homosexual
But when u come out of prison u may have had the experience of being one
So how can it be you’re going down there
For being gay
I will never understand it nor will I believe it is a sin in my eyes
Well that is all I have to say
At least im not full of lies
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SO I AM SCARED
TO LIVE ALONE THE REST OF MY YEARS
IF ONLY SOME ONE TRULY CARED
AND COULD TAKE A WAY MY FEARS
MY FIANCE PAST AWAY
IN JUNE OF 2010
I MISS AND LOVE HIM EVERY DAY
I THINK HOW MUCH WORSE IT COULD HAVE BEEN
FOR ME BUT I PRAY
I DIDN’T LASPE BACK
IVE STOPPED JUST JUMPING IN THE SACK
WITH ANY GUY
I WANT TO GET TO KNOW THEM
IM AN OPEN BOOK I DON’T HAVE ANY REASON TO LIE
ONLY GOD CAN JUDGE ME AND CONDEME
ME OF ALL MY UNRIGHTOUSNESS AND SIN
FOR NOW I WILL BE OKAY
BEING ALONE IS BETTER THAN A LOT OF RELATIONSHIPS I HAVE BEEN IN
TODAY I FEEL WILL BE A BETTER DAY
I WRITE POEM AFTER POEM TRYING TO GET IT RIGHT
I LOVE EMINEM AND HE INSPIRES ME
IN THE LONG RUN I WILL BE ALRIGHT
IM JUST DOING LAUNDRY AND WATCHING TV
I MISS MY GRANDMA ALL THE TIME
TALKING TO HER AT NIGHT
IM STAYING OUT OF THE LIFE OF CRIME
SHE WOULD BE SO PROUD THAT I AM ON THE RIGHT
TRACK
AND NOT ALLOW MYSELF TO GET FOOLED BY THESE GUYS THAT TRY AND SPIT LINES AND MAC
IM SMARTER THAN THAT
I HAVE A PRETTY FACE
EVEN THOUGH I AM WAY TO FAT
BUT THAT SHOULD NOT MATTER OR BE THE CASE
I SHOULD BE LOVED AND WANTED FOR ME
I AM A GREAT WOMEN A HELLISH PERSON
IM IN CONTROL AND IF U WOULD TAKE TIME TO SEE
I KNOW HOW TO HOLD A CONVERSATION AND HAVE FUN
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Lets hear a joyful noise
Of worship and song
Get up and praise GOD all u girls and boys
Sharing in the lords love is so strong
Watching the clock tick by
Slowly waiting for a miracle to take place
Lifting the lords name on high
As tears roll down my face
Helping us through our times of sorrow
Helping us ride this wave
Helping out others who don’t want to steal beg or borrow
Eminem helping me pave
My way through times of pain
By listening to his music and relating to his word
GOD is stearing me in the right lane
Im not insain not matter what u may have heard
GOD is humble
He is there when I fall
Hes the one I can turn too before I crumble
He is the one that fights for us all
GOD forgives
Even when we can not
GOD lives
In our hearts he can not be bought
GOD has a plan
For us
Just reach out and take his hand
And have faith and give him all your trust
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Another black eye
Another go around
When will it be good bye
Before u throw and push me down
Cant u change I love u
Isn’t that enough
To get both us through
I don’t want u ending up in cuffs trying to prove you are so tough
I don’t want to turn u in
If I did I wouldn’t be a snitch
U say im out with other guys but where have u been
With your mistress *****
Another punch in the face
Another broken bone
You are going to end up catching another case
Stop checking up on me stop blowing up my phone
Just another guy
Trying to get his point across
As I ask GOD why
I stay I don’t need a boss
Im over it
Im done
You are facing prison time so rot in that *****
I hope u have fun
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MEN COME AND GO
SOME FRIENDS LAST A LIFE TIME
ITS OKAY TO HAVE MORALS AND SAY NO
LIFE IS A HUGE MOUNTAIN TO OVER COME AND CLIMB
IM NOT ABOUT TO SLIP BACK
INTO THE PAST
IM NOT GOING BACK TO THE METH AND THE CRACK
DAMN HOW LONG IS THIS DEPRESSION GOIN TO LAST
MEN LIKE TO PLAY THEIR GAME
I GUESS SOME WOMEN DO THE SAME
I AINT THE ONE
I LIKE TO HAVE A GOOD TIME I LOVE TO HAVE FUN
BUT I AINT BOWING DOWN FOR ANYONE
IM DONE
BEING A PUSH OVER
AND NOW THAT I AM SOBER
I CAN THINK CLEAR
I MISS MY GRANDMA SO MUCH HAVE A LOT OF FEAR
AND DEPRESSION WITH OUT HER HERE
BUT MY BRAIN
STILL AINT RIGHT
I FEEL LIKE IM GOING INSAIN
I NEED MY LUTHUIM BACK OR I JUST MIGHT
MEN SAY THEY ARE FOR REAL
JUST GET TO STEPPING SO I CAN TAKE MY KLONIPION PILL
I DON’T NEED THE BS IN MY ALREADY MESSED UP LIFE
I WOULD MAKE A GREAT GIRLFRIEND OR WIFE
BUT I GUESS ITS NOT FOR ME
SO UNTIL IT IS I WILL REMAIN SINGLE AND FREE
I AINT ABOUT TO SETTLE FOR LESS
THAN I NEED AND MAKE ANOTHER MESS
IN MY HEAD
IM NOT ABOUT TO JUST JUMP INTO BED
AND GIVE U WANT U THINK U NEED
AND IM NOT ABOUT TO CUT TO SEE MYSELF BLEED
IM ABOUT TO CLOWN ON ANYONE WHO WANTS TO PLAY
THE GAME CUZ NOW ITS MY TIME IT’S A NEW DAY
AND IM STRONGER
AND IM WISER
AND I DON’T CARE IF IT TAKES LONGER
TO FIND SOMEONE GREAT
IM JUST NOT THE ONE TO MAKE IT ON THE FIRST OR EVEN 4TH DATE
I NOW HAVE MORE RESPECT AND MORE CLASS
AND ANYONE WHO AINT DOWN CAN KISS MY FAT ASS
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THIS IS THE WAY
I WOULD LIKE MY LIFE TO GO
I WAKE UP AND GO TO BED AND PRAY ALL DAY
MAKE FRIENDS WITH PEOPLE I DON’T KNOW
HAVE A LIFE AND GET OUT MORE
GO SOME WHERE
I KNOW THAT I AM TOTALLY POOR
BUT THIS ILSOLATION I CANT BARE
MY WEIGHT IS OUT OF CONTROL
I HAVE REACHED MY LIMIT MY HIGH
WHEN RIGHT NOW IM AT A VERY LOW
POINT IN MY LIFE LOVE LIFE LOSS
I HAVE A CONFESSION
THIS DEPRESSION HAS THROWN ME FOR A LOOP TOSS
ME UPSIDE DOWN
I GET SPACE BOUND BY SOME GUY
I WAS NOT EVEN ACTUALLY WITH FOR ONE NIGHT
AND I FELT FOR A WHILE I WAS ABOUT TO CLOWN
BUT I JUST CANT BE WITH SOME ONE THAT WOULD LIE
BUT IT WAS ATTRACTION AT FIRST SIGHT
BUT ITS OVER NOW
I CANT LET MAKING OUT
MAKE ME LOSE IT U KNOW
I DON’T KNOW HOW
BUT I AM OVER IT I TOOK MY MY SLOW
ASS TIME BUT I REALIZED WHAT HE WAS ALL ABOUT
I WANT TO FIND A WOMEN I CAN BE HAPPY
WITH AND LOVE AND CHEERISH
I DON’T WANT TO SOUND ALL SOFT AND SAPPY
BUT TRUE LOVE AND SOUL MATES DON’T PARISH
IT’S THE REAL DEAL
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Dear me
I miss my grandma so bad
Shes the best thing I ever had
And now she can be free
Of all the pain
And now im stuck goin insaine
I wish I could committee suicide
Just end it all
My heart and soul has died
Im so depressed I just sit and ball
Shes indebted in my head
And I want to be dead
I want the hurt to go away
And yes I do pray
What do I do
Take pills
Cut
If only I knew
Why I get the tremors and the chills
No one knows and gets how this really feels
But
If they did they would lock me up and throw away the key
But maybe that wouldn’t be so bad for me
I just know
That I feel so low
Nothing is going right
It’s a constant fight
A battle every minute
And I wish I was in it to win it
They say I am strong
Well they are wrong
Im so not
Its just something they are taught
To say
Like oh I forgot
I want to die
Yeah right
All I do is wonder and cry
Im losing this fight
I might as well fry
How long does this have to go on
How long do I suffer
Where the **** do I belong
And when do I start to get tougher
I love my dogs so much and my mom
That is the only reason I stick around
I have 1 true friend and at times I think I bring him down
With all my depression and whinning
So when is the perfect timming
To end this *****
I don’t know yet
But its getting closer I can feel it
But I will probably fail at that too again I bet
I DONT FEEL SO BAD ANYMORE BUT THERE ARE STILL DAYS I DO FEEL LIKE THIS MY BIPOLAR U KNOW HOW IT IS
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MY HAIR WAS PINK
AND EVERYONE WOULD LAUGH AND STARE
I DON’T CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK
BUT LIFE ISNT ALWAYS FAIR
I AM SEVERLY OVERWEIGHT
HOW TO DEAL
WHEN IT’S SOMETHING THAT IS SO CONSUMING I HATE
BUT MY FEELINGS ARE SO REAL
WHY
DO PEOPLE HAVE TO JUDGE THE OUTTER U
WHEN THE INNER ME DON’T LIE
IF THEY ONLY TOOK TIME AND ONLY KNEW
HOW BAD
IT MAKES A PERSON FEEL
TO BE MADE FUN OF IT’S REALLY SAD
I DON’T UNDERSTAND I JUST STAY TO MYSELF AND CHILL
EMINEM ALWAYS SAYS IT BEST IM NOT AFRAID
ILL SHOW EM ALL
WHAT IS NORMAL ANYWAYS IT’S NOT LIKE IM ALWAYS OUT GETTING LAID
I HOPE AND PRAY I GET THAT ONE SPECIAL PHONE CALL
SOMEDAY
SAYING I HAVE BEEN RECONIZED
THEIR HAS TO BE A WAY
TO BE ME WITH OUT HAVING TO BE DESCIZED
IN THE BACK WITH OUT ANYONE SEEING ME
BUT I AM SO OUT THERE I CANT HIDE
NOT JUST CUZ IM SO WIDE BUT BECAUSE OF MY PRIDE
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