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The Real Me

When I look into the mirror, what do I see?
I see a person that isn't me,
The person I see looks content,happy and free
But inside the person is tied down with chains,
Her heart is heavy and she carries the weight,
Lonely days,they come and go, they pass by so slow,
I see people,happy people and I want to be them,
But inside, you'll never know,
My true feelings never show,
I know I'm not the only one who feels this way,
Depressing days, pain, anger, fear, no-one is ever here,
If I could erase the clouds from my sky,
And bring sunny days, but it's not that easy,
People look through me, I feel transparent,
When will I let the cover fade away?
My make up and clothes make me feel pretty,
But inside I know I'm not,
The mask that hides these tears will, one day, be pulled away,
What will I do when I see the real me?

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You grab my throat,
And fling me against the wall,
How I hated those times,
The fear they sparked inside.

You held me down,
I wanted more,
Instead you beat me to the floor,

You could've held me a little,
As I lay there screaming,
Watching you leaving.

But I always went back for more,
Somehow the pleasure was worth the pain,
What a cliche.

Your passion and lust, the way you only wanted me.....sometimes
But no-one else could have me,
You protected me from shame.

Never let anyone put me down,
You never wanted to see me cry, 
I don't understand why?

I guess I still held on, hoping,
Boy was I wrong,
You left me with scars.
On the inside,
Which no-one can remove or replace.

But he is trying and I'm opening uo for him slowly,
Coz he is something I've never had before,
Real, selfless, love, no pain.

No pain from him,
He's opposite to you,
He holds me close and numbs the pain.
When you only wanted me feeling more.

I didn't deserve what you gave me, I can see that now,
Just like he doesn't deserve  the little I give him.

I'm trying to give him my all, 
But part of me still belongs,
To that power you have, that hold.

I love him more than I've ever loved you,
And breaking away from you is hard to do,
But I'm gone, I can't hold on.
Yet you're still there,
In my dreams,
Trying to destroy, 
What I have with him,

But you never will...........
You never will?

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Lost Love

I am so happy now even though I know I had to say gooodbye,
I've had your love before and I know,
No matter how hard I try,
I can never and will never retrieve the lost dreams,
The thoughts of you will always float around in my mind,
And you will always be there,
Now you're with her, I understand,
I must move on, I must be strong,
But I will never forget what we had, and that was love,
I'm saying goodbye and closing the doors,
The last tears have been cried and the hurt will hurt no more.

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Homeless Woman

There she sits,
Empty cup, head in hands,
She does not have selfish demands,
She wants for nothing rash or bland,
She simply wants a place to live,
Somone to give her the love she's never had,
She knows how it feels to be cold and alone,
She does not know the heat of a warm home,
A loving hand, she'll never touch,
Care is all she asks for,
Is that too much?

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Bullying

Bullying destroys the heart, 
It makes you weak inside, 
Don't want to face the world outside, 
You want to hide from all the fear,
The tears you shed, you hold in here,
In your mind, the pain gets stronger, 
Overcomes all the love you've ever known,
To make you hate yourself.
Unknown to you,
Its not your fault,
You are not alone,
You must find the will to live,
Throw away all fears
Forget them,
And learn to love again.

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The Game

I hate you, you use and abuse me,
And you don't see the way you drive me down into the ground,
The way you crush my heart into dust,
The way you leave me there and walk out.
That hurt you gave no more will hurt,
The pain you gave me made me see I am not some fool,
You will not walk all over me.
I am not your slave and I am not your maid,so I will go.
There is no way you can see that you really, really do love me,
There is no way you can see that we are meant to be.
With all the lies and all the pain,
When I walk away,
You will no longer have the better hand in the game.

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Sad Boy

I sit here and beg you not to do this,
But you're doing it again,
Replaying all the old records,
Is there anything new?

The same monotonous tone,
The never ending drone,
Can't you get over me?
Can't you let me be?

You hold onto memories
Like you're holding onto life, 
You have a heart full of strife,
And revenge, I can taste the poisonous revenge.

You want to drain me of everything I know, without you,
All my feelings for him, you want to destroy,
I loved you once,
You sad, sad boy.

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That Light

The feelings that I try to hide,
Inside they eat away at my flesh,
The feelings of pain and isolation, 
From everyone in my past and present

If only I could find that light,
The one at the end of the tunnel,
But I have reached the wrong end,
The end of my life,
Its happening I've replaced the pain with more
And somehow its alright,
Now I feel the release,
I'm falling.
I'm dying, 
I'm letting go.

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Without You

Why am I here?
I am not living but I exist,
A meaningless existence,
I feel nothing, I am hollow inside,
I'm empty,
My heart has been wrenched out,
I just don't function,
Without you.
I want to go to sleep and never wake up,
You were my everything,
I'm dead inside,
Without you.

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Denial

The outside of my soul shines bright,
But inside the light is dimmed by,
All the pain and sorrow in my heart,
Lonlieness and hurt linger in my head,

You don't know how I feel, no one does,
I feel disgusted with myself,
I don't know why? I am trying to deny.
But it hurts inside, I am not made of stone,
I feel there's always someone looking over my shoulder,
Not letting me be content and happy in my head,

I'm not depressed,
I'm not sad,
Just not happy.