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Stacy Day Poem
I’m so pissed
I’m so sad
Holding all this back
It’ll make me mad
This piece of paper
Is all I have to confide in
To get this life
I don’t know what I did
The pain hurts
And so I bleed
There’s no hope
And nothing to believe
I’m all alone
In this dark world
This sad cold
Depressed little girl
And who’d have guessed
That girl was me
Starting inside
I’m letting go of my dreams
How did life get this bad
With nothing but hurt and pain
Has it only started
Or has it always been this way
It’s hard to believe
It was all a lie
Just cheating and deceiving
Time after time
I’m dying on the inside
And bleeding on the out
You judge me
Though you don’t know what I’m about
The sorrow never stops
And tears never end
Pain is always there
I can’t look ahead
I hide the hurt
And painful secrets so well
Look me in the eyes
Can you honestly tell
I’m the girl you may want to be
But look a little closer
And then maybe you’ll see, it’s the truth
Things aren’t always what they seem
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When time is gone
And all that’s left
Are the broken pieces
Of the past
Where will you go
Who will be there
I’ll tell you now
No one because no one cares
All the hurt
And all the pain
It wasn’t worth it
No one came
Your all alone
And that’s that
To rely on yourself
Those are the facts
One day
Your on top of the world
And the next
Your this sad, cold, depressed little girl
Something of your mother and father
Though you don’t believe
You tell yourself you’re nothing like them
Then make yourself bleed
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I am a daughter
A sister
A granddaughter
A niece
A cousin
A friend
A student
A young girl
And a grown women
I am a giver and a taker
A dreamer confined
I talk to much and listen to well
I do so little and try so hard
I am confident and scared
Arrogant and afraid
Mighty and small
Loud and quiet
Proud and destroyed
Charming and dreadful
I am sick and well
Truthful and doubted
Safe and harmful
Ugly and beautiful
Right and wrong
Seen and hated
I am cared for and abused
Found and neglected
Loved and alone
Free and caged
I am Alive and Dead
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Walking in your shadow
No one can see
The face of an angel
Let me be free
In a world full of pain
You hide it so well
Cover my mouth
And keep me in hell
The stuff you pulled
I can’t believe
You put your man first
In front of me
Your life’s messed
So you messed mine too
Told all those lies
To cover the truth
Before it happen
You knew what he’d do
Still you let them take me
Four years of abuse
Your place was my get away
But not for long
Your mans eyes showed lust
In the youngest of wrong
You knew it was happening
But turned your head
We tried to tell you
We cried and pleaded
He molested me
And my little sister
I’ll kill that mother ker
He comes near her
And still today
You stand by his side
Swear up and down
You’re in the right
You need help
You know you do
It’s your choice
It’s all on you
The drinking and drugs
The fighting and abuse
It something I’ve learned
My kids will never go through
So with all the mess
And all I’ve been through
I’ll look you in the eye
And tell you thank you
Stacy Day
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His footsteps right outside the door
I can hear them… Closer and closer
Can you hear it?
Shhh little girl listen
I run to the door to hold it shut
5 minutes… 10 minutes
No one comes.
I look out to find
That no ones home.
I feel him on my skin
You’re not here
But forever within
Your burned into my mind
Like a song in a nightmare
Or a horrible lullaby.
I can feel his touch
I sense it… Closer and closer
Can you feel it?
Be still little girl… Pretend to sleep
5 minutes… 10 minutes
It never comes… I remove the covers
I look out to find
That no ones here
I feel him inside of me
Next to me... Forcing me
I hear you
It’s a delusion
I feel your touch
Its an illusion
I smell your cologne
Its imagination
I see your face
It’s a nightmare
So scared
Hiding my pain
Cant cry
I’m going insane
Hiding the truth
From all of you
What would you do
If you really knew
Knew what he’s done
Knew what never should have begun
The scars and pain will never be undone.
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I have been
Abandon
Abused
Afflicted
I have been
Betrayed
Blamed
I have been
Castigated
Chastised
Confined
Convicted
Corrupted
Criticized
I have been
Damned
Deceived
Defeated
Degraded
Destroyed
Disapproved
Disgraced
Distrusted
Doubted
I am now
Fearing
Harming
Now
Immurement
Limited
Neglected
Now & Forever
Ruined
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I’m stuck in this
Painful memory
Of what I thought
Should be
It never should have
Come to this
For Christ sake
We’re your kids
I know now
Nothing I say and nothing I do
Nothing will change
The way I feel for you
There’s no more excuses
And no more lies
All that’s left is the truth
That you can’t deny
You hid from the truth
For so long
It must kill you
To admit you were wrong
But I expect nothing
And won’t be surprised
If you choose to turn,
Run and hide
It’s what you do best
Though lives are at stake
But that’s just you
All you do is take
But I refuse
To take anymore
Its been a lot
More than I can endure
It’s over now
And it’s all your fault
I’d hate to see you
Don’t bother to call
Just let me be
I’m fine all alone
And I’ll make it further
Then you did all on my own
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Ill amount to something
Unlike you say
You see my father
I’ll make my way
I’m not the same
I’m different from you
I know you cant see it
But it’s the truth
You insist I’m wrong
And your always right
But I’ll be the one
Who makes it day through night
Punish me how you please
I’ll hold on longer
Yell and scream
It makes me stronger
Hit me kick me
My dreams will stay
I’ll hold them forever
No matter what you say
You can tell me I’m stupid
You can tell me I’m dumb
But you can never make me forget
Where I’m from
I’ll accomplish so much
My dreams will come true
I can’t do it?
Well I guess I’ll show you
From the age of
Four my dreams to sing
I’ll make it happen
And become something
You say I lie
You say I’m lazy
You throw me against the wall
And tell me I’m crazy
You scream and cuss
Punch and slap
I’ll forget it all
When I wake from this nap
I open my eyes
And see the ceiling
In my left arm
I have no feeling
I see my face
It’s a shame
I start to cry
But your to blame
I live my life
From day to day
Exactly like this
But it’s okay
I’ll amount to something
Unlike you say
You see my father
I’ll make my own way
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Maybe if I sleep ill remember, but I’m trying to forget.
I don’t remember what I’m trying to forget and I cant sleep…
I’m so tired. But I cant sleep. I can feel it coming, but it doesn’t.
My eyes close, but my mind wont shut off even when I say Shut Up!
I can still here myself. When I don’t participate thoughts become negative.
When you see me, I’m not looking at you. I’m looking through you.
I’m not there. I cant be. I cant be one place to long.
I had to make my world. I go there all the time, but I don’t even know what it looks like.
I have to stay alert. Do I want to know what it is before it comes. I don’t know should I?
I’m so tired. My vision blurs. I’ve been sick. I don’t feel well. Even the babies put only
a small smile on my face. Insides a coal mine. Nothing.
I cant breathe. Who could with a hundred pounds on their chest?
It doesn’t hurt. I’m not even scared. When it comes back I wonder why. I wonder what
kind of nothingness that would be like. Would I even know.
I’d like it to be black. Music. No, no music. Just me. Alone. With a child’s mind. Know
the voices in my head, but know it isn’t right. Sleep. Make it black. I can feel how alone
it is. The comfort of no one.
I don’t want my scream to come back to me. Not like an experiment. Actually no one.
No one to see, hear, smell, touch a thing. Just me. Peace. Maybe. I don’t know.
What would that kind of loneliness do. Who would know.
Like Dean Koontz “The Door To December”. The girl might be someone of me. Someone
id like to know. To be. Was it really a struggle? Maybe not.
I don’t know.
I just want to sleep.
To see.
To remember what I’m trying to forget.
To breathe.
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Right now
I don’t even want your time
I just want that feeling
To know that your mine
Where are you now
You said you’d never leave
All the lies you told
You really made me believe
You loved me
You promised you’d stay
But now your gone
And now I’m afraid
No one will ever have a chance
Thanks to you
Your sarcasms so petty
I can’t stand the stuff you do
Jus explain why you left
Help me understand
Or are you still stuck on
“I’m a grown ass man”
You said you don’t
Have time to make me happy
I’d rather be miserable
But still have you next to me
You don’t understand
Why I love you so much
Honestly neither do I
But I need to feel your touch
I need to feel your lips
Touching mine
Feel you love me
All through the night
No one can ever
Take your place
I honestly cant live
Without your embrace
Please don’t let go
Just give me a chance
I’ll turn the world over for you
I know we can last
Please believe it
I know you do
We’re meant for each other
Please baby, I’m in love with you
Maybe you could learn to love me too
I honestly don’t know
But still I love you
And I am begging you not to go
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