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Dennis Baze Poem
28 years of life
I've experienced life and death
Contemplated suicide
Thought about how it would feel to take my last breath
On my death bed
Eyes turning from brown to black
My visions are blurry
On the verge of having another panic attack
I didn't realize what I could be
Couldn't diagnose my own mental state
Couldn't escape my own insecurities
Cried because I was too scared to face my own fate
I fell into the bottom of the lake
Buried by rock after rock
My worst fears became a reality
Moving slowly like the hands of a clock
Tears poured down when I saw the expression on her face
Grabbing my hands and pulling me in
It was like the pain had been sucked out of me
Knowing I could turn to her if I felt this way again
We prayed together
Prayed to God with love
Prayed for a second chance
Knowing our loved ones will continue to look down on us from above
Copyright © Dennis Baze | Year Posted 2011
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In the pit of my stomach I feel weak
So distant I can hardly sleep
Walking blind on a busy street
Emotions constantly changing on the inside
I'm up then I'm down
Not myself when you're around
Distractions getting in the way
Burying inside everything I've wanted to say
Sinking struggling to stay afloat
Can't stand still on this rickety boat
Yet I find myself in pursuit of happiness
Gaining perspective and knowledge
Becoming easier to relax with no stress
Dark moments eventually bring prosperity
Through the light of Christ
I see great times ahead of me
To live each moment is truly a gift
Letting go of the doubts I'm ready to shift
To our king who saved us from sin
I lift my hands to you to thank you again
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You try to kick me when I am already down
Anything to get under my skin
You continue to push my limits
Leaving me questioning your motives again and again
The Bible states to love thy neighbor
I struggle to find a peaceful place
You continue to push my limits
Knowing there is an evil intent hidden behind the smile on your face
It feels good when others feel the same
They know how I feel inside
You continue to push my limits
Knowing you're one of those people who struggle with their pride
I will continue to pray for you
Knowing that's the best thing I can do
You continue to push my limits
Maybe you'll feel the same way when it happens to you
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Sudden memory lapse
Satan continues to set traps
Eyes blurry like I have cataracs
Every time I climb up
Back down I fall
Thinking too far ahead
Trying not to make a judgment call
Not sure if I will be alright
I thought about suicide again last night
I see hope ahead but Satan blocks out the light
Holding a gun up to my head
I'm not sure what I'll do
I'm selfish and don't think about what others would go through
I want to pass on so I can view the afterlife
I can't go on living in strife
I know it's bad when I'm cutting myself with a knife
Demon's circling around me like a hawk
Feelng like I have a key but I can't pick the lock
It's scary when depression becomes an obsession
Many people love me but at times I feel alone
I have everything I need but I can't pick up the phone
Copyright © Dennis Baze | Year Posted 2011
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