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Britney Love Poem
The beauty of self destruction
comes before you know that its done.
It happens when what makes you happy
Ends up making you hate someone.
To be tricked by a lover,
by someone who you're supposed to trust,
Into thinking that you were so special
But learning you're no more than dust.
To be so brainwashed that your life has poured out
And all you are left with is fear.
Fear and hate and sickening thoughts
and hoping the end is soon near.
Not the end of life, you see,
but the end of this dreadful demise:
The journey that brought me down so far
That others look down with their eyes.
In the process of stopping the stress for me
I caused all my loved ones such pain.
By crying about my situation
And ignoring when they ask again.
Expecting that they would always be near
unaware that I was breaking their hearts
Assuming that they 'd understand
and not leave me there in the dark.
But the more you worry about yourself
The more you cause others to hurt.
I knew that he'd get distasteful towards them
To me, it's like eating dirt.
I could have stood up, told him just to leave,
that family and friends were more dear
But my selfishness and my vain enterprise
Left me with my family not near.
Sure they still love me and they always will
Sure they'll still be there when I'm down.
But I can't expect them to ignore all my pleas
When I act as I'm all smiles, no frown.
They all tried to help, tell me what was best.
They knew that deep down in my heart
That I was slowly destroying myself
like pissing on somebody's art.
I fool myself, but not my loved ones
They always knew it wouldn't last.
I've wanted out for so long, you see,
But out of fear, I'd pass.
So now here I am with a glass in my hand
All alone with this wine.
It didn't have to be this way,
I'd had happiness all the time.
Copyright © Britney Love | Year Posted 2010
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Britney Love Poem
What arms wrap 'round when I need someone there?
What lips touch mine to show they care?
What hands are made to show me love?
What eyes are shining with love I speak of?
There are no arms, no lips, no eyes.
No hands to hold me, just full blown lies.
Lies of which I'm aware but unable to turn
From the one whom my flame continues to burn.
My heart calls out and bleeds to no end
I'm begging for him to be my friend.
I need him to show me just what I mean
But to him I'm not sure I mean anything.
He's brainwashed me well to think that he's right.
Although we don't sleep together at night.
We don't share many happy memories
So many empty moments to seize.
But its too late for those, too late to go back.
We've fallen so far now away from the track.
I don't know what you want to say
And I know that it won't come today.
But some time you'll look back, and see what you had.
You'll realize I wasn't the one doing bad.
That having a woman who's there by your side
Is worth all the downsides and worthy of pride.
Copyright © Britney Love | Year Posted 2010
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Britney Love Poem
Twist me, lie and steal my heart
Make me rise then fall apart
You tear me up, and break me down
While laughing as my mind spins 'round.
What is it you want me to do for you?
What that I don't already do?
I've given up all of what matters to me
Just to put you at ease and to comfort thee.
But comfort is what you'll never give
Won't put yourself out as long as you live.
I've done all I could do to show you my love
But you continue to torture with endless shove.
I'm not tough enough, I cry too much.
I can't cook just right, I'm not soft to touch.
I complain and whine and don't listen to you.
What else makes me horrible? What more will you do?
You show me you can better yourself without me
I'm not what you need, I'm not a beauty.
You won't take me out, I've ruined that chance.
I'll never be the one with whom you'll dance.
You tease me with proposals but say you' won't ask
Because I'm just not good enough, I can't do the task.
I don't know what else I can do, my love.
I wish you could see what I truly think of.
I'd gladly lie down on the line for you
I'd stupidly give up all that I'm due.
But instead I'll just wait til your done with this game.
And I'll sit by broken hearted just being your dame.
Copyright © Britney Love | Year Posted 2010
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