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Caitlyn Kovacs Poem
It just passes by
It's like a leaf in the wind
How I shake like it
At the thought of it ending
The time of my life I spend
Copyright © Caitlyn Kovacs | Year Posted 2025
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Caitlyn Kovacs Poem
Escaping this bubble
An impossible dream
Like counting every drop of water
That swims through the sea
All hope is lost here
All sense of time
I drown in my desires and fears
I can’t bring myself to life
All I can do is sit here and write
But I don’t know what to say
So I just sit here for awhile
Until it finally pours out on the page
But the words are never going to be enough
Because I’m always looking for a change
Never satisfied with my own being
Looking for the meaning in other’s lives, so fleeting.
Instead of getting up to live my own
Escaping this bubble
But when I leave I can’t breathe
I want to take my heart out of my chest
And put it away for safe keeping,
Because the way that it beats is too much to bear
Funny because I tell myself that I don’t really care.
A light is found here,
A bittersweet Hail Mary.
The emotions in the air
Bring me to my knees,
Thanking God for feelings.?
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I'm afraid of these apparitions,
Getting in the way of my aspirations.
I know I need them here,
But staying here talking is my biggest fear.
What if I go nowhere?
Like a flower that never blooms,
Hiding and talking to the moon..
What if I never come out,
Of this hole I dug for myself?
But I just can't enough..
You know that I love,
To hear your voice.
It's almost like a drug.
I sit and wait,
For a day that never comes.
When will I get up,
From this place I sit in daily,
I just thought that maybe..
I would be somewhere by now.
I know you tell me to find my cloud,
That one day my day will come.
I don't mean to have doubts,
I just feel so alone, I feel so lost.
I feel so sprung up on what I've done,
And the things that I haven't.
My life has been tragic.
Recovery is a rose with thorns,
It hurts to grab it, my skin has been torn.
But now that I have it I can't let go,
No matter how hard it is to hold.
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I know you hear me, wherever you are.
And I know you watch me dancing among the stars
I know that you're afraid to be a part
of who I've become.
It's like when it's the best part of the tape, and you want a rerun..
But the tape's been ripped out of the VCR, and you don't know how,
to put it back together.
When all you want is to sit and watch it forever.
I know you hide in a secret light,
that you save for a rainy day.
I know it's not fair for me to make you wait,
for you to walk this path that's already been paved.
But when I follow you,
I find my way out of the dark.
Perhaps because of the pain and the love
that you hide inside of your heart.
The stuff you don't ever let anyone see,
except when you're dancing
among the stars and the sea.
© Phoenix Pen
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Little did I know it
I might be a poet
Though I know it will take time
To get in the groove
If my legs can't move, then writing will do.
I never know what to say
It's like getting caught in the rain
Or tip toeing past your parents room at night
It's like sitting with the wind,
Getting caught in your hair
And at just the right moment
Someone stops to stare
I have to work on the flow,
It's like rowing a boat
But what about the scenery
Im in the garden of time,
I don't really mind.
It's calming, the greenery.
And the way that the time passes me by.
It's hard not to get stuck there.
The sound of the waterfall is a delight
Its like getting the rhyme right
Somewhat like a wind chime
But isn't there more
Like a story to adore, I cant let it be a bore, right?
Where do I go from here, I guess we'll see
A poet who didn't know it, is it meant to be?
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I been looking to love somebody
Lonely nights morning highs
What are they without somebody
I've been spending time with my own body
It doesn't feel the same without your love
Oh why'd you have to go and mess it up
Wishing you would call me, (call me)
Aching, hurting, burning
For somebody to love
I just couldn't get enough of, the rush
Or the way that you brush, your hair
The way that you stop, and stare
The way that you'd touch
Why'd you have to lie, on what
I'm so tired of being lonely , it sucks
Wishing you would call me, call me
You drive me insane
I'm just a number away
Pick up the phone
Let me hear you say, you're sorry
I won't be anyone's secret
Don't tell me you don't feel the same
No need to be subliminal
You can message me in a different way
Before it's too late
I been looking to love somebody
Lonely nights morning highs
What are they without somebody
I've been spending time with my own body
It doesn't feel the same without your love
Oh why'd you have to go and mess it up
Wishing you would call me, (call me)
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If I might,
Just sit quietly with your soul tonight.
Your spirit intertwined with mine,
If I could I'd hold you so tight.
His voice echoes in my mind,
His touch, so divine.
I imagine a kiss, as I tremble with excitement.
The blood rushes through my veins,
I'm becoming enlightened.
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A sight for sore eyes,
A beauty to behold.
I press my luck and imagine tracing her cheek,
Just with my fingertips, so soft.
Then, a kiss from a rose ghost.
Her hips move like waves,
washing over me, if only
if only they weren't in my head
The space in my bed, what a waste.
If only I could see her face.
If only she could feel this kiss returned on her lips
Then she can't tell me when it's over
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He stares at me with eyes like the ocean
I can't think of anything else in this moment
I imagine him placing his hands on my hips,
And then, suddenly I feel his kiss.
That smell I know it, it's the smell of roses.
A kiss from a rose ghost.
Too bad I could never get closer.
Just don't wake me when its over.
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Caitlyn Kovacs Poem
I wanna die now
I wanna die
Does it really come as a surprise
Look me in my eyes do you despise
Me cause I wanna die
What's the view like after death I wonder
If it's even any better or if we're under
Exactly the same sky with just a different filter
Will it matter if I do things any different
Why should I try harder
Why should I work smarter
Everything's just a bore like o brother
All I do is sit and complain
We're all playing the same game
But I might as well level up
Under a billion different names
I go everywhere in my mind
And no where in real life
Why don't I mind it's like
I'm stuck in the same headlights
That I've been in front of since I was a child
Knowing I need to go the extra mile
But I can't move my feet
All I can do is write and the feelings bittersweet
I wanna die now
I wanna die
Does it really come as a surprise
Look me in my eyes do you despise me
Cause I wanna die
Is it your place to judge
I wanna join my loved ones
But I don't like the pain so I hold on to my name
Instead of watching it fade away
And leaving on an airplane
I wanna go so far away
Wishing something would make
Me wanna stay
But I can't keep putting on this facade
Stuck inside my box
Scratching my noggin wondering what is going on
Why is everything so confusing
Why can't I learn to use this
And be so profound
I'm craving making my own sound
But it's just white noise that I'm surrounded by
So I just sit and pick apart my life and that's why
Oh that's why
I wanna die now
I wanna die
Does it really come as a surprise
Look me in my eyes do you despise me
Cause I wanna die
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I used to care a bit before but
I really don't care much no more
You threw our love out of the door but
Feels like I've been here once before
So I really should've seen this coming
This Deja Vu
Just makes me move
Wherever the wind takes me
I really don't wanna lose
Feels like I'm coming unglued
Waiting on someone to save me
I'm just dancing in the dark
Quit tearing me apart
I'm feeling mellow
Got a broken heart
It doesnt bother me much
It just helps with the art
It gives me content and stuff
Tripping on the stars
They say it won't get me very far
But I gotta have faith
I know it's not too late
I don't need anyone to save me
This Deja Vu
Just makes me move
Wherever the wind takes me
I really don't wanna lose
Feels like I'm coming up soon
Not waiting on someone to save me
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A girl encased in time
All she sees is a garden of flowers
A blue butterfly flies by
Suddenly she surges with power
Transported to this beautiful place
The butterfly sits in her hair
Some time passes by
Beware of the effects of the garden
Suddenly the butterfly is not there
Panic is set in motion,
I'm not sure why because,
My heart is usually hardened.
She runs through a forest, her vision is blurry
She finds the blue butterfly, caught in a web
She rushes to the butterfly in a hurry
Tears flowing like rivers down her face,
In real life too? Wait…
I opened my eyes,
All this time had passed me by,
I don't know why, but I just sat there and cried.
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