Waiting for Death

I wanna die now I wanna die Does it really come as a surprise Look me in my eyes do you despise Me cause I wanna die What's the view like after death I wonder If it's even any better or if we're under Exactly the same sky with just a different filter Will it matter if I do things any different Why should I try harder Why should I work smarter Everything's just a bore like o brother All I do is sit and complain We're all playing the same game But I might as well level up Under a billion different names I go everywhere in my mind And no where in real life Why don't I mind it's like I'm stuck in the same headlights That I've been in front of since I was a child Knowing I need to go the extra mile But I can't move my feet All I can do is write and the feelings bittersweet I wanna die now I wanna die Does it really come as a surprise Look me in my eyes do you despise me Cause I wanna die Is it your place to judge I wanna join my loved ones But I don't like the pain so I hold on to my name Instead of watching it fade away And leaving on an airplane I wanna go so far away Wishing something would make Me wanna stay But I can't keep putting on this facade Stuck inside my box Scratching my noggin wondering what is going on Why is everything so confusing Why can't I learn to use this And be so profound I'm craving making my own sound But it's just white noise that I'm surrounded by So I just sit and pick apart my life and that's why Oh that's why I wanna die now I wanna die Does it really come as a surprise Look me in my eyes do you despise me Cause I wanna die