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Clare Barclay Poem
It’s time to change the narrative
Listen to your soul,
Take a deep breath in
Breathe out and let it go.
I know it’s hard to do
But let go of all the shame,
The finger doesn’t point at you
It was him who was to blame.
When you can only trust yourself
And your mind rapidly declines,
Who is there for you then?
To help you care for your own mind?
Sometimes you have to take time out
And change your own perception,
Let the world keep spinning round
As you look deeply at your reflection.
It’s time to change the narrative
Listen to your soul….
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Clare Barclay Poem
My final resting place.
I may be in the room next door
I may be down the hall,
Don’t you try looking for me
As you won’t find me here at all.
I’m in my final resting place
A place where you can’t see,
A place where you can’t visit
And sit and talk with me.
But I am always with you
And believe me when I say,
I will be here waiting
When it comes to your ‘resting day’
Where we can be together
And sit and laugh and cry,
But don’t you rush to join me here
With the birds up in the sky.
Please just keep this promise
That you will always be,
That lovely, true, kind person
Who always saw the best in me.
The person who I turned to
When things were good or bad,
And even though I’m gone now
I beg you, please don’t feel too sad.
When you think of me from time to time
And a tear rolls down your face,
I tell you I am happy here
In my final resting place.
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Clare Barclay Poem
How can I write about happiness?
When everything around me is fake?
How can the world keep on turning?
Surely it’s all a mistake?
Why are my eyes full of tears?
When people ignore me I cry,
People would be shocked to hear it
Because I’m the master of disguise.
I’m acting like I have loads of friends
I’m acting like people I know care,
Truth is I’m lonely y’see
And nobody is fully aware.
Can you truly ever know someone?
When you keep painful memories within ,
The world only sees what you show it
And I really don’t know where to begin.
I’m hoping that one day soon
When my feelings are a little more clear,
I’ll of stopped hiding away
And will no longer be living in fear.
My heart wants to live everyday
My mind wants to lock me inside,
Time to let my heart rule my head now
Enjoy life and live it with pride.
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Clare Barclay Poem
A ditty to my titty
There you are upon my chest
You used to be the boob I loved best
But now all you do is cause me grief
I just need a moments relief
But you would rather swell and cause me pain
Make my skin itch again and again
This journey so far , has been too long
I’m starting to think we don’t belong
To add insult to injury there’s a wound that won’t heal
I’m forced to wear dressings-I’m sick of this deal!
This wound has ruined nearly all of my bras
I think this issue has gone too far!!
Now my skin is attacking me
Itch itch scratch scratch
please just let me be!!
So here it is- a ditty to my titty
I beg you please- stop being so ty
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While the hours away..
To have this worry for so long,
Then suddenly realise it has gone.
I sit and while the hours away,
Nothing to think and nothing to say.
It’s strange how consumed
Your mind can become
Your feelings fester and overrun.
Then before you know it
It has disappeared,
Your darkest thoughts
Of what you feared.
Are nothing but a distant memory now,
You want to move on
But don’t know how.
So you sit and while the hours away
Nothing to think and nothing to say.
Physical scars are now what’s left,
Emotionally you feel bereft.
But at least you are still here
To think and feel,
Those fears were thoughts
That never became real.
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Clare Barclay Poem
New Year
To face a new year
from the depths of my soul
Is like facing a fear
And not letting it go
A new beginning of being
And of not being scared
To fight through this battle
And pretend that I cared
A time to be positive
And start life anew
To push through the past
Not stick in it like glue
But the climb up this hill
Is far too steep
I’ve no energy left
And my future looks bleak
This mask- how it slips now
I just want to hide
I’m scared of myself
There’s nothing left inside…
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Clare Barclay Poem
One Day
Yesterday you were in my life
Yesterday you were in my heart,
Yesterday life was right
Yesterday we weren’t apart.
Todays the day you broke my heart
Todays the day life went wrong,
Todays the day that didn’t start
Todays the day we don't belong.
Tonight’s the night for my tears to fall
Tonight’s the night I hide away,
Tonight’s the night I curl in a ball
Tonight’s the night I crave a new day.
Tomorrow I start without a care
Tomorrows the time life starts again
Tomorrows the future with you not there
Tomorrows the day I knew I lost a friend.
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These eyes are full
If I blink this river will flood,
Overwhelming feeling
My fears are misunderstood.
An unboxed memory- open
Thoughts I cannot take,
Don’t want to talk about it
Fear- my mind will of course break.
Can’t push it back now
It’s here - the fear I have to face,
Tried to force it back inside
But can’t put it back in its place.
It wants to take me down- deep
Kill my life, my love, my joy,
Thought I’d fight it off- but can’t
So scared it will ruin my little boy.
Scared to say it out aloud
As I know what this may bring,
Not sure where to turn to
Almost can’t feel a damn thing.
Can’t allow this fear to crush me
The time is now. Time I must be strong,
Baby steps at first, I think
Prove my worth and that I belong.
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As darkness falls
And the monsters creep out,
I have a moment left to ponder
Argue, scream and shout.
It’s been so long for me now
To feel a calming deep inside,
But I’m sick of running from myself
And I’ve nowhere left to hide.
The sun will rise on me today
With the glow on my skin, the warmth in my heart,
A new beginning is on its way
And I’m eager for this day to start.
We all know it won’t always be easy
Those feelings don’t just disappear,
But I’m choosing to be happy now
And I’m glad that I’m still here.
The darkness shows itself
When you’ve lost the light,
Know you haven’t lost the battle
You only lost a fight.
You have it deep within you
To win this mental war,
The trauma you have fought through
Has made you much stronger than before.
No longer feeling a victim
You’re a survivor, as am I,
I felt the lowest of the low
Now I will enjoy the highest of highs.
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My get up and go
Got up and went,
I’m repenting my sins
For wasted days I have spent.
It’s ok for me to not show up
Though I hate letting people down,
Would you rather I ‘had a face on’
Or laugh whilst wearing a frown?
Without sounding selfish
And I’m sure you agree,
It’s good being You
But I prefer being ME!!
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