Prove my worth

These eyes are full If I blink this river will flood, Overwhelming feeling My fears are misunderstood. An unboxed memory- open Thoughts I cannot take, Don’t want to talk about it Fear- my mind will of course break. Can’t push it back now It’s here - the fear I have to face, Tried to force it back inside But can’t put it back in its place. It wants to take me down- deep Kill my life, my love, my joy, Thought I’d fight it off- but can’t So scared it will ruin my little boy. Scared to say it out aloud As I know what this may bring, Not sure where to turn to Almost can’t feel a damn thing. Can’t allow this fear to crush me The time is now. Time I must be strong, Baby steps at first, I think Prove my worth and that I belong.