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Mariah Johnson Poem
Ppl aroun my age disgust me
All dey kno is $, guns, appearance & Frontin
Fightin, wolfn & cussn
Outside w/no house trainin like dey mama aint tawt em nun
Dey jus show dey butts 2 c who lookin
& neva think bout da outcome, dats y so many lives r tooken
Ppl aroundmy age luv frontn
talkn bout dey getn $ & dey got haters wen dey aint got nun
not even that lil piece of hope (a diploma) 2 allow dey self 2 b sumn
but naw dey wana hang wit dey "buddies"
wen 1/2 gon be buried 3ft deep on top of sumbody
and tha otha 1/2 gon b sumbody's punk (evrybody dont get lucky)
Ppl aroun my age always wonder y
Y dey cant have dis n dat like da next guy
Failin 2 realize u gotta try
Nothin is givn less ya work 4 it while ya knees 2 da dirt
fingertips 2 ya chin n ya eyes 2 da sky
Ima give tha world my heart b4 i die
I want a change so it starts w/me
I cant do it alone so Ima need u 2 b like twitter n follow me
I want u 2 kno wat goin on nside
I want da world 2 hear Chi-town's Cry
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Mariah Johnson Poem
She sat at the edge of the bed and she said it’s some news I must share
So she grabbed the remote control pressed mute so I could hear
She had a sad look on her face so I said mama what’s wrong?
She looked me right in the eyes, took a deep breath (hah)
For u baby, I’m trying to be strong
Confused, scared, anxious to find out what I didn’t know
She grabbed me close and said your Aunt Beverly’s gone
So many memories began to flood my head, tears flooded my eyes
Hurt, deceived by God, in denial
I knew that it was true but unable to accept reality
Anything but this! I scream
Why does this always happen to me?
Beautiful woman, phenomenal woman
Soul now turned cold
Man u should’ve saw her when she saw me
Girl you just so gorgeous you need to be modeling in those magazines
Aw and look at that baby’s hair
All those repeated things she said all flooded my head
I tried to see her for the past three months
January was the last time I’d seen her
I missed her; this is the longest she’s been away
But I remember words that she said “I may not make it” now she’s dead
I miss you Aunt Beverly, I love you but I hate you too
U were so selfish to do what you did to steal my heart and leave me here
So smart and established, strong-willed and accomplished
Kind soul, open hearted, giving what she earned
At that moment I felt that God had stolen my smile but it was me being selfish because I
miss you so
You left too soon out of my life so it’ll take a while to let you go
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Its kind of sad , this piece that Im missin
and when all granny can give u is hugs and kisses
People who dont hold ur blood r who hold ur heart
cuz u feel along while ur family falls apart
Am i wrong? or am I mean because I despise ma family tree
Im nothing like da rest I stand alone
I've never had someone to hold
Am i ok? Could it get any worse?
I'll hang myself if i see another nurse
because im sick with anger
because i dont see me
I see all the aspects of someone i dont wanna be
Do I make sense? or I am confusin?
Its neva been physical but my life is mentally abusing
Each line I write is dedicated to the inner me
Not the girl I see but the girl I wanna be
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Mariah Johnson Poem
1 shot 2 shot 3 shot BANG!
Im tired of seein so many of my peers slain
bout a week ago my lil cousin got jumpd
Cudve lost her life wit 2 mo blows 2 da head but 4 wat?
News casting of more & more deaths in chicago
I thawt we were a ppl
where did da love go?
Yung, i mean yung black men & women losin their lives
Nobody has da rite 2 take sum1s life
Gang violence
stupid stuff
Wateva hap'n 2 natural causes & freak accidents?
Dis irresponsible & reckless bull crap
Im tired of dis
So many ppl can still b here 2day blessn us w/their presence
Dey say da past is da past but its now becomin da present
We're letn em win
Cuz we're takin each otha out makin it e-zr 4 dem
Yes i do cry when i hear dat a child has died
I cant describe da pain i have nside
Im so sick of funerals & each time it rain
It's jus God informn me dat he's disappointed once again
Classmates Cousins Ppl I've met once Ppl I need
Have lifeless bodies cuz of stupidity n-v $ greed
Wat is dis place ive been brawt up n
Suburbs have less opportunities den tha city now
how dat hapn?
Dey telln ppl not 2 cum 2 their hood
But dey can go where dey plz n its all gud
I think dats sum bull
nobody gon tell me where i can & cant visit
Sad part is goin where ur not wanted can cost ur life
& we cant even have fun 2getha not even family cuz its always a fight
Sis' w/ no bros Moms wit no son
We thawt it was over but it had jus begun
So @ nite w/my knees 2 da ground, fingertips 2 my chin & eyes 2 da sky
I pray 2 God dat da world can hear Chi-Town's Cry
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Beat me until my eyes are involuntarily shut
My body is motionless and I cannot speak
I cannot feed myself because I am too weak
Strap my arms to the bed so I can’t pull out the IV’s
Beat me so that I cannot see, smell, think or feel
Because I don’t want to know what it’s like not to have him here
I love my life so why take that away
Because if he leave me I’ll feel dead anyway
We’re in this room together and I’m missing you
Don’t take your love, don’t leave
Your love’s like oxygen, I need it to breathe
I got an infinite amount of love that I’m willing to share
So if the one you loving runs out you already know loves always here
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I know I didn’t give birth to her
But I love her because my better half is a part of her
When you’re not around I’ll be there for her
Because I want to give love & show her that I’m here for her
I’ll make her bottle; I’ll make sure her stomach ain’t tight
I got a natural mother’s instinct so I’ll know when she ain’t alright
And when she get older I’ll do her hair just like mine
Because she’s got her daddy & her Riah she’ll be just fine
Mani, you momma’s baby but I’ll treat you like your mine
And I’ll be there when you need me
And when you’re scared just look over your shoulder & you’ll see me
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Mariah Johnson Poem
When you left, you left a legacy
Everyone knows that Jock is legendary
Wiltshire told you, you were a star
In the news for several weeks
Longing for you, but she’s still strong
Loving you more since you’ve been gone
Memories are all good
In our hearts you’ll remain
Smile that could light up anyone’s day
Sense of humor
Yet you went away
Only hurt could know how we feel
Jock
Outgoing
Courageous
King of the field
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Mariah Johnson Poem
SOMETIMES I FEEL STUCK W/NO POSSIBILITIES
LIKE IM ALONE CUZ NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME
I KNO IM RARE CUZ THERE'S NO ONE LIKE ME
MIMICKIN IS NOT AN OPTION CUZ DEN U'LL HAVE 2 GET INSIDE OF ME
FLOW THRU MY VEINS WIT EASE
RUSH 2 MY HEART N STAY
LIVE IN MY BRAIN
LEARN Y I'M NOT HEALIN
OTHA THEN DAT U'LL NEVA KNO WAT IM FEELIN
I CAN HIDE MY CARES N WORRIES UNTIL DEY START SUBSIDIN
I GOT A LOT OF THINGS INSIDE OF ME THAT I'VE BEEN HIDIN
EMOTIONS THAT I'VE BEEN FIGHTIN
SO I FOUND MY OUTLET N SO I KEEP WRITIN
I DNT CARE IF THE NEXT PERSON LIKES IT
OR IT DOESNT SOUND RIGHT
CUZ ITS THE TRUTH FROM MY HEART
I'VE NEVER WROTE IN PENCIL
CUZ IF I HAVE 2 ERASE IT WASNT REAL
U CANT REWRITE MISTAKES N LIFE RIGHT?
U JUS HAVE 2 MOVE ON
DA INK REPRESENTS EVERYTHIN I'VE DONE WRONG & RIGHT
& HOW I LIVE W/NO REGRETS SO IF I MAKE A MISTAKE...N I WILL
I'LL NEVA TRY 2 ERASE IT
AND 4 A MOMENT I FEEL ALRIGHT
CUZ I GOT SUMTHINGS OFF OF MY CHEST & MIND
I TRY NOT 2 TAKE THINGS 4 GRANTED
SO Y AM I TAKEN?
I HAVE LOVE N MY HEART BUT I WANT 2 EXCHANGE IT
I HAVE FEAR IN MY EYES BUT U CANT SEE IT
I KEEP MY HEAD REAL LOW SO I DONT GET QUESTIONED
I HATE WEN I HAVE 2 EXPLAIN Y PPL HAVE BEEN SO SELFISH
THEY MAKE ME HAPPY THEN TAKE MY HAPPINESS WEN THEY LEAVE
PPL DID SOME THINGS 2 ME U WOULDN'T BELIEVE
BUT FROM MY PAST I LEARN N DEN TRY 2 REFRAIN
TRYIN NOT 2 DO DA SAME THINGS AGAIN
TRYN NOT 2 CRY CUZ I'VE BEEN BETRAYED
I HATE 2 CRY SO I'LL START WRITIN AGAIN
I LOVE 2 WRITE CUZ IT TELLS ME ABOUT ME
LIKE THE THINGS I THINK I KNO ABOUT MYSELF
AND EVEN THE THINGS I DONT SEE
WHEN I WRITE ITS LIKE IM BI-POLAR
I HAVE MULTIPLE PERSONALITES CUZ I NEVA WRITE BOUT DA SAME FEELINGS
BUT THEY'RE ALL ME
GLUE A PEN 2 MY HAND CUZ I'LL NEVA STOP WRITIN
IT DA 1 THING DAT MAKES ME....HAPPY
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I know I didn’t give birth to her
But I love her because my better half is a part of her
When you’re not around I’ll be there for her
Because I want to give love & show her that I’m here for her
I’ll make her bottle; I’ll make sure her stomach ain’t tight
I got a natural mother’s instinct so I’ll know when she ain’t alright
And when she get older I’ll do her hair just like mine
Because she’s got her daddy & her step mama she’ll be just fine
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THERE IS THIS MAN
THE MAN THAT CLAIMED TO BE A FRIEND
THE SAME MAN WHO STOLE MY INNOCENCE
HE TOOK MY CHILDHOOD FROM ME
AND NOW THE ONLY WAY I FEEL LIKE A KID AGAIN IS TO CRY AND ROCK, CRY AND
ROCK, CRY AND ROCK MYSELF TO SLEEP
THE WAY HE LOOKED AT ME WAS LIKE A “MAN” IS SUPPOSE TO BE IN A “WOMAN”
BUT I WAS ONLY A GIRL
A GIRL TRAPPED BETWEEN THIS MAN AND THAT BED
I STILL SLEEP IN THAT BED
AND EVERY NIGHT THINKING BACK ON WHAT SHOULDN’VE HAPPENED
TWO YEARS LATER STILL IN FEAR BECAUSE OF THAT MISHAP
THIS MAN HAD NO RESPECT FOR ME
LYING INTO THE FACES WHILE STARING INTO THE EYES OF THE FAMILY
THIS MAN STILL HAUNTS ME
NOW EVERY GROWN MAN THAT LOOKS AT ME I FEEL IS DIGUSTING
WHEN EVERY MAN WITH BIG THICK HANDS, LOW CUT HAIR, CHARMING PERSONALITY
SMILES AT ME
I REMEMBER THIS MAN’S HANDS CARESSING AWAY MY INNOCENCE
THE MAKERS PROTECT THIS MAN
CHILD OR NOT, THE PROTECTION SHOULD BE FOR THE INNOCENT
FOR SPEAKING UP THE LADY MAKER TOLD ME I LOOKED STUPID
BUT IN MY HEART I FELT BRAVE
FOR TRYING TO PROTECT GIRLS WHO WERE UNDERAGE
SEE THIS MAN, (AND I USE THAT WORD LOOSELY)
IS NOT A FRIEND, NOT A GOOD KID, NOT INTELLIGENT, NOT HEAVEN SENT
BUT THIS MAN MURDERED MY SELF-ESTEEM
A THEIF!
AND HIS MAKERS…ACCESSORIES
CONDONING THINGS THIS MAN DOES TO YOUNG GIRLS
AS IF HIS ACTIONS DIDN’T ALREADY HURT ENOUGH, THE MAKERS ADD ON PAINFUL
WORDS
IM NOT SORRY THAT I TOLD THE TRUTH
IM SORRY THAT YOUR MAKINGS ARE DECIEVING YOU!
HOW DARE YOU TELL ME THAT WHAT HE DID DIDN’T MATTER?!
TWO YEARS AGO OR TEN, THIS MAN SHOULDN’VE NEVER DID WHAT HE DID
AND YOU ‘RE STILL IN DENIAL WHILE HE’S STILL DOING IT
THIS MAN KISSES HIS MOTHER WITH THOSE LYING LIPS
THE SAME LIPS HE USED TO KISS MY INNOCENCE AWAY WITH
THIS MAN CHANGED MY TRUSTING HEART
I CAN NOT TRUST ANY MAN
BECAUSE THIS MAN…
THE ONE WHO PORTRAYED A FRIEND
DECIDED TO STEAL MY INNOCENCE!
I DON’T WANT A MAN TO SMILE AT ME
BECAUSE I’LL THINK HE’S SMILING AT MY BODY
AND MY BODY STILL CARRIES THE SCARS FROM THIS MAN
FINGERPRINTS STILL VISIBLE FROM THE UNWANTED TOUCHES OF HIS HANDS
AS FOR THAT BED, EVEN WHEN I LOOK AT IT FOR A SECOND OR WHEN I LAY IN THAT
BED
I LET THE TEARS FALL DOWN THE CORNERS OF MY EYES BECAUSE IM SCARED AGAIN
ALL BECAUSE OF THIS MAN’S ATTRACTION FOR MY INNOCENCE
Copyright © Mariah Johnson | Year Posted 2011
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