The Attraction For Innocence

THERE IS THIS MAN THE MAN THAT CLAIMED TO BE A FRIEND THE SAME MAN WHO STOLE MY INNOCENCE HE TOOK MY CHILDHOOD FROM ME AND NOW THE ONLY WAY I FEEL LIKE A KID AGAIN IS TO CRY AND ROCK, CRY AND ROCK, CRY AND ROCK MYSELF TO SLEEP THE WAY HE LOOKED AT ME WAS LIKE A “MAN” IS SUPPOSE TO BE IN A “WOMAN” BUT I WAS ONLY A GIRL A GIRL TRAPPED BETWEEN THIS MAN AND THAT BED I STILL SLEEP IN THAT BED AND EVERY NIGHT THINKING BACK ON WHAT SHOULDN’VE HAPPENED TWO YEARS LATER STILL IN FEAR BECAUSE OF THAT MISHAP THIS MAN HAD NO RESPECT FOR ME LYING INTO THE FACES WHILE STARING INTO THE EYES OF THE FAMILY THIS MAN STILL HAUNTS ME NOW EVERY GROWN MAN THAT LOOKS AT ME I FEEL IS DIGUSTING WHEN EVERY MAN WITH BIG THICK HANDS, LOW CUT HAIR, CHARMING PERSONALITY SMILES AT ME I REMEMBER THIS MAN’S HANDS CARESSING AWAY MY INNOCENCE THE MAKERS PROTECT THIS MAN CHILD OR NOT, THE PROTECTION SHOULD BE FOR THE INNOCENT FOR SPEAKING UP THE LADY MAKER TOLD ME I LOOKED STUPID BUT IN MY HEART I FELT BRAVE FOR TRYING TO PROTECT GIRLS WHO WERE UNDERAGE SEE THIS MAN, (AND I USE THAT WORD LOOSELY) IS NOT A FRIEND, NOT A GOOD KID, NOT INTELLIGENT, NOT HEAVEN SENT BUT THIS MAN MURDERED MY SELF-ESTEEM A THEIF! AND HIS MAKERS…ACCESSORIES CONDONING THINGS THIS MAN DOES TO YOUNG GIRLS AS IF HIS ACTIONS DIDN’T ALREADY HURT ENOUGH, THE MAKERS ADD ON PAINFUL WORDS IM NOT SORRY THAT I TOLD THE TRUTH IM SORRY THAT YOUR MAKINGS ARE DECIEVING YOU! HOW DARE YOU TELL ME THAT WHAT HE DID DIDN’T MATTER?! TWO YEARS AGO OR TEN, THIS MAN SHOULDN’VE NEVER DID WHAT HE DID AND YOU ‘RE STILL IN DENIAL WHILE HE’S STILL DOING IT THIS MAN KISSES HIS MOTHER WITH THOSE LYING LIPS THE SAME LIPS HE USED TO KISS MY INNOCENCE AWAY WITH THIS MAN CHANGED MY TRUSTING HEART I CAN NOT TRUST ANY MAN BECAUSE THIS MAN… THE ONE WHO PORTRAYED A FRIEND DECIDED TO STEAL MY INNOCENCE! I DON’T WANT A MAN TO SMILE AT ME BECAUSE I’LL THINK HE’S SMILING AT MY BODY AND MY BODY STILL CARRIES THE SCARS FROM THIS MAN FINGERPRINTS STILL VISIBLE FROM THE UNWANTED TOUCHES OF HIS HANDS AS FOR THAT BED, EVEN WHEN I LOOK AT IT FOR A SECOND OR WHEN I LAY IN THAT BED I LET THE TEARS FALL DOWN THE CORNERS OF MY EYES BECAUSE IM SCARED AGAIN ALL BECAUSE OF THIS MAN’S ATTRACTION FOR MY INNOCENCE