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Abby Fields Poem
Exposing the unacknowledged intellection of the inflicted
Delving in the presence of delinquent attempts
I wonder if too little too late leaves real emotion exempt
We are often forced to see the reality of our actions
Selfish satisfaction in an exchange for a pocket containing emptiness
Heavy moods to suffocate suppressed notions that you are disgraced
Its time to own up to faults; all the pessimistic thoughts embraced
I just wonder if I will ever find my way back to the very beginning
There is clarity, but only momentarily for the positive reaction
Then I dream in colors to vivid to place on pages in black and white
I could show you what I see if your eyes could handle the sight
Defensive tactics though often leave the mind in never ending contraction
Divinity segregates and negates the perceptions of fate
I wish I could absorb the commitment between a little deeper
Let it set in gold, instead of metals that are often cheaper
Disrespecting the value of coveted connexion
Its better to open your eyes but remain tight lipped
The interruption causes explosions of frustration
I see mood cycle abruptly between suicidal and elation
And all I want is to understand.
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Abby Fields Poem
I scream I love you
I need to make sure you know
Then I put the phone down to lie-
Not to lie to you but I'm Lying in the arms of a lover
Consensual situations resulting in casual embrace
My body wanders, hands moving quickly
His mouth on mine but its your lips I taste
My finger tips on the forbidden pleasure
I can feel my pulse quickening with shallow breath
It skips a beat with the touch on the small of my back
I need the train wreck we are creating to stay on track
Muffled sounds helping to keep on pace like a metronome
My everything being wrapped around a moment
I write my intentions on shoulder blades in bright red
Ten marks spelling out what this could always be
His teeth clenched on thighs to let me know he sees
Explosions of locked dams releasing in the light
His determination like dew on blades of greening grass
I can sense the calm after the rocky waters begin to subside
The rush of lust painting pictures where children gain sight
Exploration of new sensations with a smile on my face
I wind the hands on my internal clock a little tighter
The destruction of devotion has made my head much lighter
I don't lie to you, I am simply lying with a lover
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I would let my tears subside,
but then I would have nothing.
They help to fade the stain,
so careless are shaky hands.
Weak whimpers are drown out by sobs,
louder than the sound of my heart breaking.
The cracking of brittle glass echos,
in the hollowed shell of my body.
I grasp my chest, that used to be full of life,
and realize there is nothing but air.
But I'm more comfortable being empty.
The breath of life is now tainted,
cutting off the oxygen I need to survive.
But I'm more secure being "dead".
Voided admissions and broken ties,
bonds are snapping from being pulled taut.
But I'm happier with out the attachment.
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Abby Fields Poem
Hiding from my dreams
I feel myself running faster
Leaves on dying trees my only witness
I'm left standing beside myself it seems
The darkness of your forest engulfs my spirit
Alone and scared, tears trickle past my hope
I can't escape from my past, I pretend to cope
Abandon the truth that is clearly visible
Subsidized meaning behind your smile
The weight of your words becomes more like a memory
Remember when all men were taught chivalry
It was a lesson it seems to be lacking in the present
Venture past the brink of what was possible
I can not argue with the logic of the reason
But as summer sets we are in the cycle of seasons
As predictable as the words from my mouth
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Abby Fields Poem
Excuse me,
I'm avoiding the truth.
It comes creeping up slowly,
just when I think I've escaped it.
I try to out run the fast paced words,
fired from well oiled guns.
Every one hitting my core,
I am forced to stop in my tracks.
I said, Excuse Me !
I don't want to deal with mistakes,
they are mine, but I'll never claim them.
I erased my name off of every one you offer,
and claim it was signed by a loose tongue.
When I try to turn and walk away,
I'll stumble over the things I say.
How do I deny the present ?
Pardon me ..BUT
My barriers are built in disregard
because my faults are my own.
They aren't yours to exploit,
but they can be yours to accept.
I turn my cheek, two faced
I'll give you the other side of my coin.
Its tarnished.. and full of flaws.
The bright, shiny and beautiful side
will remain hidden..
Until its safe.
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