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Liz Allen Poem
She stares at you across the room,
You have no clue what you should do
You're used to the feeling in your veins,
lost control of what it contains
Your eyes go wide as you try to steal a glance,
The moments over and you lost your chance
They say try it once and you will never be the same
Lost yourself
The moments gone
Looking down on yourself,
Standing in the pouring rain
One heart that the world just couldn't tame
They say she's deadly,
Venom wouldn't say the same.
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She sits in the corner shielding her face,
Looks into the eyes of her own flesh and blood
She begs him to stop,
Watches as his face turns every shade of red
She closes her eyes wanting to be anywhere than where she is right now
Flash forward to her waking up,
Hearing the sirens,
His fist in the wall yet again
The firemen push her out of the way
Seems like this seems to be on repeat
They ask her questions,
He glares at her,
Daring her to be bold
She bites her lip,
Another day of forcing the tears
Another moment of hiding back the truth
As she looks in the eyes of the crimson blade,
That will never leave her alone
Her mother comes home from work asking about her day
She locks herself in her room,
Pressing the familiar song that replays her life,
Over and over each day
Laying awake at night as she hears the scream
The familiar sound of the 3 am lamp breaking
She rolls over on her music letting the song,
Pull her in a world that is much happier than what she is forced to brave
Fast forward years later,
Her mother finally ending it
As she finds her love with her best friend
Harsh words exchanged,
People and things will never be the same
She takes a breath,
Finally having the strength to speak,
But he will not leave her alone
And his face and the memories,
Still haunt her dreams each night
3 am and she wakes screaming in sweat
He was supposed to care,
How he was supposed to be there,
But he had another ulterior motive in ploy
Years of trying to get help
A desperate cry,
That the world chose to ignore
Life is about trust,
It is short,
It does not last long
So, when you get that moment where you feel alive
Hang on to it,
Never let go
Learn to trust,
Above all learn to fly
Your so much more than just a face
The times you feel like falling flat on your face,
I promise will not last forever
Do not forget to love yourself,
For there is someone out there,
That I promise will love you just as much
Get past betrayal and learn you're so much stronger than that
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Liz Allen Poem
She wants someone who will treat her like the world,
Take her in their arms and promise her the world
She wants someone to whisper "It will be alright,
When things get tough,
He won't just run and hide
She wants to be his everything,
For him to look in her eyes and not feel ashamed
She doesn't care about a storybook romance,
Though she wouldn't complain to have someone walk her home
She's so tired of crying herself to sleep
Wishing for a love that didn't exist
So, there is someone out there for everyone,
But is this really the truth?
At the end of the day does anyone care enough to say goodnight.
She wakes in the morning putting on her makeup,
Squeezing into those new jeans that fit just right
Not trying to impress anyone,
At the same time wishing anyone would just stare
Living in a world,
Where nobody cares
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Liz Allen Poem
Truth is she's scared to death,
Truth, is she doesn't know how to rest
Each day a struggle,
The more she tries,
The more she loses a part of herself
The truth is she cries herself to sleep,
Though you'd never know this
Truth, is she puts on a brave face,
Even though it feels like a never-ending race
Folding the laundry,
While silently cursing in her mind
Truth is you only see what she shows you,
You know nothing else
Truth, is you judge by what you see,
But you never hear her pleas
When things go wrong,
Nothing you say or do
Will ever make them right
She struggles with the voices in her head
Every single day and night
Telling her she's not good enough,
Telling her that no matter what she does,
It will never really matter
She picks herself up from the floor again,
Putting on the brave face,
That is getting all too easy
She used to wear her heart on her sleeve,
Now she's scared to let it go
Scared that the person she gives her heart to next,
Will rip her in two
How do you trust when the one that you love,
Destroyed all the hope you ever had
How do you love again,
When every person you loved,
Doesn't end up loving you back
They say in time it gets easy
Just learn to breathe,
That love is worth the wait
Though if you're constantly waiting
Only to leave breaking,
Is it worth it at all?
The truth is she wants to believe,
The truth is she's struggling,
Slowly losing hope,
Slowly losing herself,
She will spread her wings,
One of these days she will find what she lost behind
The truth is she's happier than she ever been,
Though it just feels like sometimes she can never win
Truth is she's thankful for everything she has,
You will never hear her admit defeat
Truth is she is realizing how strong she really is,
Truth is she will never let anyone else ever win
Truth is...
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Liz Allen Poem
Am I worth more than just a moan?
Do you wish to say hello,
At the end of the day am I more than just a fantasy?
When you say hi,
Are you thinking of all the ways you'd like to watch me break?
Do you realize that the things I feel,
To you might seem unreal,
Though to me they make up everything I am
I sit in the same spot,
Where we always used to talk
Even though you're not here talking to me
I can hold a full-length conversation
In the end losing every part of what i built
I long for the day I could just go back in time
Sadly, what i have today,
Is what I'm stuck with right now
Somedays it's so easy,
Other days I cry to sleep
All I ever wanted was to be perfect,
Though perfect is so much harder than it seems
If I could do it all over,
My only wish is that I would have done it better
Tonight, I bow my heads to pray
Knowing he's gotten me this far,
As long as I keep believing,
Maybe then all hope wouldn't be lost
There are bulbs brighter than me,
Though I am determined to see,
That there is some greater good in me
Even though I can't express it,
Please don't lose all faith in me
Please don't give up on me
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Four a.m. and I just can’t sleep,
I lie awake thinking why me?
The dreams persist and I don’t know why
Everything that once made sense,
Has now just left me so confused
Why am I feeling this way?
Why me?
I just want one day,
One day where I don’t feel so messed up in the head
It’s like a drug that makes its way throughout my mind,
Telling me to shut up and take it
Telling me that I don’t need to go to bed
The tossing and turning,
The visions in my head,
Telling me that there’s no such thing as bed
what once seemed so innocent,
Is far from the case this time
Although it seems so innocent,
That’s never the case
Slipping through your fingers,
I turn to jelly,
Pulling me back won’t happen anytime soon
It’s like a part of me is sitting in three rooms
A part of me trying to accept what doesn’t make sense,
Maybe this isn’t meant to be clear
Nothing about this is clear
These thoughts in my mind once again ….
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She wants to make a difference in this world,
Be known for more than just being a face
At the end of the day,
She wants to be reminded that she's not a disgrace
She sometimes pushes herself so far,
That she doesn't realize those dreams all begin on a wishing star
She has a smile that could light up the room,
Though it's hidden behind years of self-doubt
It's funny how even though she's seemed to lose almost everything,
It has never been enough to knock her down
She has a motive,
Something to work for
While she might be crying or sometimes dying inside,
She knows it is never good-bye
She knows there will be a brighter day
Even though its dark and grey,
It's still going to be okay
She just has to believe and have faith,
One day the world will be more than just grey,
One day,
It will be enough to get her through her day
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Liz Allen Poem
Rescue me,
Tell me it's almost over now
Rescue me,
From myself
So far deep,
Though I cannot see myself
Who is this person?
Can she hear my cries?
Who is this person?
Why am I trying not to break inside?
Rescue me,
From the feelings of myself
Rescue me,
I am not supposed to feel this way
When all is said and done at night,
I roll over and try not to cry on my side
You are my poison I cannot seem to take,
That stack of books,
Piling up beside my couch
One more page,
I swear I will be done
One more tear I try not to cry
You softly brush against me,
I try not to pay you no mind
Your touch like daggers,
Slowly drawing the line
When the night comes will it be enough?
To hang on to this stupid thing called love
You turn your head the other way,
Your name comes out,
Burning like the overnight vodka
I slowly drink away your memory,
The alcohol lingering on my cheek
Tomorrow, I tell myself it will not mean a thing,
But in my head
I am screaming
Begging you to rescue me
Wondering how long it will take you to set me free
A flash of light,
A single brush of the skin goodnight
Small encounters that should not mean a thing,
Though in my head I am begging pretty please,
Say you will rescue me
Begging you pretty please,
Won't you come set me free
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Liz Allen Poem
You think you've broke me,
I got news for you i won't crack
You think i'm at my weakest,
You haven't seen nothing yet
I'm so tired of all of your games
One day you've disappeared,
The next you're reclaiming your fame
You were the one person that was there,
Gone in a blink of an eye,
Its obvious you had little to no care
So please just leave me be,
Let me set these broken pieces of eternity free
Please stop saying what you think I want to hear,
When two days later you're only going to disappear
I've spent so much time building up this wall
Never in a million years will I ever let you tear it down
When all is said and done,
Being left with your ashes is not something I would call fun
Pick a different place,
Honey you will not win this race
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Truth, is I don't know if i'm honestly ready for this
I want to let you in,
Though what are your intentions?
Am I just someone easy for you at the moment?
Do you want something more?
Just what is your intentions?
This feels like I'm just conveniently there
That you are looking for one thing
I'm bad at reading the situation
So, confused
A part of me wants to trust you,
That part is afraid I will only get hurt
I feel like I'm getting mixed signals which makes this all worse
It's easy to not put your heart out there,
Or that is what I had thought,
Could it be I was wrong?
Could it be you like me for more than just something to do?
Maybe I'm honestly just stupid
Falling for anyone that gives me attention,
Though honestly i don't think I'm falling for you
More like trying to push you away,
Though it's failing effortlessly
Gives up...
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