These Thoughts

Four a.m. and I just can’t sleep, I lie awake thinking why me? The dreams persist and I don’t know why Everything that once made sense, Has now just left me so confused Why am I feeling this way? Why me? I just want one day, One day where I don’t feel so messed up in the head It’s like a drug that makes its way throughout my mind, Telling me to shut up and take it Telling me that I don’t need to go to bed The tossing and turning, The visions in my head, Telling me that there’s no such thing as bed what once seemed so innocent, Is far from the case this time Although it seems so innocent, That’s never the case Slipping through your fingers, I turn to jelly, Pulling me back won’t happen anytime soon It’s like a part of me is sitting in three rooms A part of me trying to accept what doesn’t make sense, Maybe this isn’t meant to be clear Nothing about this is clear These thoughts in my mind once again ….