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Madison Alan-Lee Poem
my beautiful drug.
oh, how filled with heartbreaking joy i am to feel your addicting lovelinesss
if i said i hated your guts, i'd be lying and you'd know it.
purely unspoken. thats how it works.
you're the daisy to my chain,
the beam to my moon,
the words to my sentences,
the smile to my face,
the ephemeral clouds to my sky,
the thing to my every.
what more can i say?
can i live without you?
i hope that
i never have to find out
darling, you asked
and i replied.
combine all the beautiful words in the dictionary,
the dazzling, aching hollowness one feels when they cry with laughter,
and a melody that makes you shiver with wonderment
and now you know what i feel
when i look at you.
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Madison Alan-Lee Poem
little Jimmy is a retard
all the kids say so
he doesn’t go to church
and his brown patent leather shoes are dusty
little Jimmy is quite stupid
all the kids say so
in winter he doesn’t get a Christmas tree
and his house is in a bad area of town
little Jimmy is a dummy
all the kids say so
he wears an odd gold star embroidered on his jacket
and eats strange things for lunch
little Jimmy is a moron
all the kids say so
he doesn’t even have a bike!
we spit and throw rocks at him
i feel funny when we do those things
…but all the kids say
little Jimmy is an idiot
maybe mr. hitler with his neat mustache can straighten little Jimmy out
i’ll ask mother if i can wright mr. hitler a letter.
someday, when i’m grown up
i want a mustache like that too.
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Madison Alan-Lee Poem
And the Wise man said to himself,
“all that is broken must be renewed”
and so it arises, slides through the horizons,
slippery as a mermaid.
While the light shivers and the trees moan,
the water thrashes, thrusts,
turns and roils.
and so the sea,
the sea begins.
Soon after, the gods awake,
and taste the pulp,
the pulp of the moment
they hover, captivated by their own power, mirrored,
down below in the depths.
and so the sea,
the sea roams on.
The crevices crack,
the buildings bow down and break,
the cities tower in puzzlement.
And down on the street, we ask ourselves,
“What was it that beat? What was the rhythm that once beat so majestically and true,
but now thuds so bashfully?”
and so the tide rears its head and strains,
the waves stampede and burst,
the Wise man smiles his omniscient smile,
and the sea,
the sea wanders on.
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Madison Alan-Lee Poem
i always knew i wouldn’t die in a car accident.
over, and over in my mind i pictured
the breath-gulping jolt, the heart-stopping shudder
the weak, gasping, clawing for control
inside the dark blackness
glass raining down on the innocent planet like butter knives
ecstatically sinking their jagged bodies into the ground, or simply shattering into chunks
upon touching
i always knew i wouldn’t die in a car accident.
that my neck wouldn’t gracefully arch in the wrong direction
that it wouldn’t snap like
…a wishbone
i knew i wasn’t destined
to open my confused eyes in such an unknowing way that i would see my unfulfilled life
wander past me in the flash of a moment
oh no, oh no
i always, always knew i wouldn’t die in a car accident.
the smell of startled asphalt, the screech and cry of protesting tires, the stuttering of
my red leather seats, the cacophony of worried, puzzled thoughts and the unattached,
curious gazes from untouched onlookers that would then go about their unfulfilled lives
never unforgetting and the whiz of passing, unharmed automobiles
i would never experience the touch of crude, busy hands from those who make it their
unfulfilled life’s work to recover the unrecoverable, to correct the uncorrectable, to
save the unsavable, and to cure the uncureable
to stop the unwavering tide of death
yes death
that one single bright shining light in each of our lives that is constant and unalterable
and unmodifiable
oh yes, i know i won’t die in a car accident.
around me, the sky is an ordinary blue, and birds wail their pure, righteous, unblamable,
and unstained ditties
how wondrous…i didn’t realize how high up i am .
such along, long, long way down
oh no, oh no
i most surely will never ever die
ina car accident.
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Winds batter the dusty house,
can you hear the creaks, moans, the wrinkles?
his hands,
glide up and down the worn wood of the aged rocking chair
this place is the essence of antiquity;
i feel ill-at-ease
his dull eyes search
for something, anything to pull him
into the past
the chair groans: once, twice,
a third time
i wait, impatient to depart.
he offers me a bowl of blueberries
politely, i refuse
….and then, finally he sees it:
that one, single object which
lights the spark in his lifeless eyes, and which captivates him
he beings to speak….
softly at first, then louder,
crescendoing in volume
i can see him reliving his worn-out memories, handling each with care, like a prized item
or an old, trusted friend
i watch him ramble and reminisce
about so many things
the war, the shine of her hair, the laughter of the children
he even tells me about the blueberry bush he
planted over her grave
i listen, and listen
hours later he is jolted
out of his reverie…
the jingling of my cell phone
i see
the sparkle dim
the laugh lines fade
….he slips away into nothingness
once, twice, a third time
the rocking chair groans
i creep away
down the lane and leave him
still sitting there
a solitary figure
surrounded by ghosts and wisps
of things that once were
they swirl around him,
caressing his wrinkled brow
with cool fingers
at home i open my refrigerator
and i eat blueberries
they stain my clothes, and
i try to get them out
but
they cannot, and will not leave.
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i don’t want to hear.
stop your racket, let me curl up
into my
self.
forget the new, the change,
freeze the turning point
melt my bones into quicksand
love is like a disease;
wherever you go, i
most certainly will follow
my body is a door
the fist that knocks upon
it is
my heart
the poets
they, the dead ones
speak of matters such as eternal, and everlasting
excuse me, pardon me
Shall I compare thee to a summer’s day?
beautiful, ornate, twirling speech like the spirals of Notre Dame
forgive me please, my dear poets
my words are plain, crude but they do
hold my spirit.
…oh, i digress,
i flutter here and there
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know this:
i travel you with me
our paths never separate at least not to me in my mind
i am stationary, still, steady
only when i hear
does the earth move under my feet
only when i see
do i feel off-tilt
you.
you make me spin off my axis,
corkscrew out of orbit,
hopscotch along the stars
dodging comets, heartbeats, metaphors and tears
only occasionally,
i collide.
]words unbind me, but only sometimes[
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hanging out
that’s what we do
pondering glory and greatness,
drinking nostalgia from a plastic cup
that clock ticks,
that song plays,
cross our t’s and dot our i’s
play fast and loose
eagerly feel up life
say we won’t look back,
but do it when we think no one’s looking
slip, swallow, sing, startle, emerge
try our very hardest to be unique
and close our eyes so tight
that the blackness deepens around us
make our bodies a smile,
open, and begin again.
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Madison Alan-Lee Poem
Miss Kelsey Louisa is only 5 years old.
but she’s figuring out a lot of things about life.
she knows more than when she was only 4 years old.
Kelsey knows about love.
it’s the way her dog Sandy chases a laughing squirrel
its also the way mama smiles when she gets a letter from daddy
Kelsey knows about unfairness too.
this one is the way mama calls her for dinner right when she’s almost to the middle of
her cherry tootsie roll pop that she saved from the doctor’s office
its also the way Molly tripped her in the park when Kelsey didn’t share
Kelsey understands nervousness.
it’s the way a deer looks when it gets caught eating the roses in the garden
maybe its also the way people sometimes twitch…a cracking of the knuckles, a pacing of
the floor, a tapping of the foot, even a clenching and unclenching of the lips
oh, and Kelsey understands death too.
this one is the jingling of the phone during dinner
they aren’t supposed to answer it, but sometimes they just have to
death is also the sound of the emptiness coming from the broken clock on Kelsey’s
bedroom wall
all these and more Miss Kelsey Louisa knows.
except for one.
just one.
fear.
is it the smell of burning cookies?
or maybe the flash of a jolt she feels when someone sneaks up on her during hide-and-seek?
or what if it was the time when her favorite color crayon snapped in two? what an
awful, awful, desolate noise that was…
Kelsey knows about happiness.
this one is easy!
the shade of the yellow ribbon on the head of a mannequin in the nearby clothing store
happiness is sunshine, painted fingernails, sticky sweet watermelon juice running down
her face, sand castles, and twirling till she’s dizzy and the entire planet pirouettes
around her
but most of all,
happiness is the way Kelsey felt when her daddy came home and hugged her
his camouflage uniform and boots were gleaming
Miss Kelsey Louisa is only 5 years old.
but she knows a lot of things.
many more than when she was 4.
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I pull down my worn thesaurus, turn the notebook to an empty, curious page
click and unclick my pen
5 or 6 times
as if to click some inspiration into my searching, wandering brain
some days I grow frustrated with
my inability to coherently express
some days I grow content with
the effortless ebb and flow of words
at times, the paper is my ally and friend
at others, it is my enemy, taunting me with dangling strings of eloquence
and just when my hopeful fingertips brush the ends, they are quickly snatched back
I revel in the freedom, the liberty, yet I am also imprisoned within the lines, trapped
into the ink, and woven into the paper
a prisoner with absolutely no desire to escape
I believe the ending of a piece of writing to be the most important part; the last thing
the reader sees
it must be powerful, thought-provoking, insightful
one must never ever leave it
unfinished, and incomplete
it would not be right to just….
trail off
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i was once told
that we, as individuals
have defining moments
where the dim light brightens, the clichés morph into new, original phrases
epiphanies
where the molecules in the air around us freeze for a moment
time forgets what it was saying
a standstill, a realization
where all one’s ideas, experiences, and capabilities merge
some go all their lives without it, some search for it, some never look and get lucky,
while others find it just a
little too late
definitive. definition. momentous.
still others receive this gift, this snapping into place, and go all their lives
never realizing it
…how dismal a notion
i lean back, blotch the fresh ink with the side of my hand, listen to the rain, stare down
at the page
i hope i have a defining moment
…when i draw a circle with my pen
i can never seem
to draw it perfectly.
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