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Kija Ajik Poem
Our hearts are like doors to our souls,
Opening and closing as we let love in or out.
However, sometimes that door is sealed,
Never to feel the heart ache of love again.
We see the end of all days,
Passing by as we stay.
Filling our souls with hate
Burning between or irises
As the nondescript world in our minds is created.
Touch in silenced by numbness.
Tears spill the deceased blood of our love
We see no more and feel no more.
Just to live again in a place,
Even the devil won’t go.
The Swimming Angels brighten our paths,
Leading us to our damnation.
We follow them cause, we know God has abandoned us,
Leaving us to witness his nonexistence
And to try to deny it.
We perished trying to destroy the Evil within us.
Nevertheless, what we should have fought was the good,
Provoking the Evil.
The good that we let rule our lives;
When we had them.
We believe what we see and see what we believe.
How long until we see what we don’t believe.
To see the reality of everything
And make it into something imaginary.
Don’t call it reality when the life you live,
Is fake.
Let the Swimming Angels lead you to where you belong.
Copyright © Kija Ajik | Year Posted 2008
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Black like the crow,
Lost in the snow.
It's eye sparkling like her blood,
Burning into my cold flesh.
Her whispers lost in my mind.
The memory of her face,
Just a figment of my past life.
Her gaze upon me no more.
Many years of a wasteful life,
Wasteful time thinking of her.
The Gothic bells of death mean nothing to me
Just to see her one more time,
To taste her blood.
My fangs run deep
Yet how far can they go
Before she disappears in the dark world,
That consumed me long ago.
My lonely eyes watches the black crow
Flying above this world.
Watching me as the cold flacks stick to my face
Never melting, even as my eyes glow red.
She saw me not as the monster,
But as something she could love.
Let thou hear these simple words
For thou saw through my devil eyes.
A Vampiric Love Story.
A dark fairytale of my heart
Not written for a happy ending.
I lost her surrounded by the white of snow,
A cold grave for the one I love.
For the dark world will never hold such beauty.
I am forever Alone.
My love is lost.
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He lives within the embrace of God
A man who died with good in his heart,
But sadness in his soul
He sits among us all
Within the kingdom that holds him prisoner
Waiting, watching, wanting
Taken from happiness
Now lost within a lonely dimension,
Watching his soul fall deeper into despair
His mind caught within a quite madness
Memories of a past life no longer there,
Memories he held dear to where a heart once lay;
Where the void takes over
He aches to cry out but cannot,
Screaming desperately within the silence he hears.
With heart clenched in hand he sits
As demons and angels claw at his feet,
Surrounded by white but seen in darkness
He weeps within himself
The lack of self comfort,
Self aware,
Sensing his sanity slipping away
The bliss he was promised, he worshipped
Nothing but a false image as he remains in this lonely dimension,
Waiting for the moment his soul is lost
So he can truly be nothing,
Released from the hell he was put in
This hell called paradise.
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Alone the darkness beacons,
Words of innocence that reach my ears,
The chains constrict yet I still feel you.
I can't see you for your soul is bright,
but you can see me through shadows that consume my right.
You know my true name, but you never say it.
Your presence is becoming distant.
I speak to you in the devils embrace,
I say your words yet I can't hear you.
Call my name once more,
My heart craves your voice.
The darkness holds me back.
I want to see you, but even if I could you light would destroy me.
For I am darkness and you are light.
We were born to be apart yet my lips long to touch yours.
I curse the Devil in vein, I curse to God in disgust,
yet how can I hate such an Angel like you?
Your words break the chains around my heart,
Your voice makes the devils arms numb.
I don't care if I die, my love if I can only see you.
My life would be complete.
As I run from the darkness my shadow fads.
I think of you my love even as my skin peals away,
Even as my soul starts to decay.
My skin turns to ash, my eyes become stone,
But even if I am blind I can still see your light.
Please say my name before I fade away,
Please hold me in your embrace.
I feel your arms around me as you pull me to your breast,
Blood spills from my eyes a devil cry.
Your love is apparent in every breath.
“Anonymous…” I hear you say as I fade away.
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Your love runs cold down my spine,
From the touch I can, no longer feel.
My love has gone away far from my heart,
Within the words you will never say.
I can no longer feel you lips,
Your body isn’t pressed into mine.
When you found your way into my arms,
Why didn't you tell me you were dying?
I opened my heart for you yet,
You never had the chance to enter.
You were my love,
Why did you have to disappear?
Seeing you fade away was something I never wished to see,
Your where mine, the only person that completed me.
As I watched your butterflies fly away into the night,
A part of me flew away with them.
The memory I hold of you is not one that would ever go away.
Seeing you smile while in my embrace,
For once in my life, made me feel like I was alive inside.
My tears only fuel the sadness plaguing my heart,
I just want to fall apart.
Maybe if I died as well I would be able to see you again,
Feel you.
However, as I sit in the cold looking up into the sky
I realize that I can still see you.
I can still see the butterflies somewhere among the stars,
Looking down at me with that smile I loved so much.
I will never feel love again,
Only the love you had for me.
I hope wherever you are, wherever the butterflies have taken you,
My love will forever stay.
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((If you don't like anything gay related please don't read this piece. Thank you))
My love for him was stronger than I could imagine.
He saw through my fake smile, my hidden face.
And found the heart within the broken lies.
He loved me for who I was.
He showed me his true feelings,
True love I thought was lost.
And, though our love was real.
To them, it was wrong
To them, it was a horrible sin.
Their eyes held so much hate,
So much unnecessary hate.
We just wanted to be with each other,
Just wanted to love in peace,
Our own peace.
Yet what is peace when the one you love is taken, on account of it.
Because someone thought our love was wrong,
People thought it necessary to punish us.
I lost him to Them,
Lost him to their hate.
You didn’t deserve to die my love,
Didn't deserve to be punished for being in love.
I wished they had taken me instead.
For life without you is impossible,
They just couldn't comprehend that.
Why can’t a man love another man?
Just because a ‘book’ say’s its wrong
Makes it wrong?
Love holds no boundaries.
Until this world understands that, it will forever be lost.
From What Is Wrong,
From what is said to be wrong.
I lost the one I love,
To the demons that said so.
To the demons that say love has rules.
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The rain has been my friend since I can remember.
Each droplet of water causing me to smile and feel loved.
For all my life the only person I had was me,
A friend was just another word for me to hate.
When I am sad no one is there to cheer me up,
When I need to be held no one is there to embrace.
I fear to be alone, because I am alone,
Just a waste of the existence I was gifted.
But when it rains everything washes away.
I can smile, feel numb even if it is just for an hour.
Some may think it's just water,
But to me it is so much more.
So as I sit, I let the rain consume me whole.
For that hour I will be in peace.
The smile on my face, the sadness in my heart
All means nothing; just a passing of time until I die.
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You don’t see the madness of disease.
The crusade of death, a created depth.
You cry, but none notices.
Your locked in their stares, a horrific affair.
No one understands you, you're alone in this world.
Broken and left to die, a way to cry.
You find yourself falling, but you don’t care,
Maybe dying is the only thing fair.
Your Bandaged Eyes hide your faith,
A wicked place, you seem to hate.
It burns through your soul, the sound of the cawing crow.
Life is nothing but a dark hole.
The echoes are calling, they know you’re falling,
Into the world you hated for so long.
People don’t care, as they stop to stare.
You were just a simple object for them to reject.
What lies behind those Bandaged Eyes?
A place where peace slumbers or a place all plunder?
I can feel your sadness, the burning damage within your chambers.
I see what you can't and wish I couldn’t.
Behind those Bandaged Eyes,
All the world’s secrets lie.
A place to cry or die.
A way to feel free
Far From this horrible dream.
However, to all you're a disgrace.
The one who holds, no face.
They don’t see you as the Angel you are,
Sent from above to live in this nightmarish dream.
The one behind those Bandaged Eyes,
Makes me want to cry.
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