Details |
Joe Coalson Poem
Everyday,
I question my fate
Do I push,
this Issue do i wait?
The decades of pain.
I chose to Medicate in ways,
To forget your face.
I Stay dazed.
For all the ways,
All the days,
Memories in-vain
The torment and pain
so ashamed
Thoughts flowing
Like rain
in My brain
Tie my veins
I just blinked
And lost Everything
This Time and pain
The Guilt
and shame
It's insane its
the only thing that
links these trains
To their Tunnels
In my brain
my souls Stained
Hotter Than
burning flames
Im ashamed
I medicate
mySanity slips
away
this pain just looms
and loops on play
i live the death
of my own sealed fate
id appreciate if
id fade away
dicipate as i inticipate
a way to be saved
maybe one day
but fate shoves me
back into this
ing game
theres never a winner
no first place
maybe ill learn one day
whos to say
it blast off
lift away drift away
time to sedate
this rage ive caused
by hate time to medicate
So I poke the dopamine
Poke the dope in me
a rope round my throat
Hope is gone
the dope hangs on
can i keep doin this?
if so how long
i wanna move on
but im barely hangin on
yes barely
Look around
do you see
what I see
needle caps
From using daily
Abusing maybe
One day I'll be saved
From the evil thing
That's made me a slave
Made me misbehave
can i be forgave for
All the rage and hate
Pushed up my veins
I'm to blame
For the shame
my choices I made
Cant take em back
The memory is stained
So fight and strain
yes everyday
To stay away
atleast ya hope
That dope choke
me a rope
I dont know if
Its letting go
I hope so
so tired and alone
Itll expose your soul
Take tolls on you
Kills you so slow
Please help me
I need to know
If I can still feel
When the chills are gone
Or am I forever gonna
Feel alone
my emotions will be froze
they were left in the snow
whats the deal
I mean
Foreal...
no need
crying over spilled milk
Feel the pain
And it's so real
Copyright © Joe Coalson | Year Posted 2020
|
Details |
Joe Coalson Poem
Look
What is
the matter
With me
I'm not
Myself
my brain
Is scattered
it's splattered
Like a
shattered mirror
Anything
that's ever mattered
Has left
me here
To deal with
My own fear
I climb
the ladder
Because the
wheel won't steer
Please do
I go slow
Do I wait
right here
Please tell me
How high
does this go
I can't hang
on anymore
I feel myself slipping
Wake up
on the floor
I must be tripping
But
i'm not sure
I'm alert but
My concern
Is dispersed
That I'm sure
Is a lesson learned
In life ya
deal with love
And ya deal
with hurt
You think twice
About situations that
Might put
you in dirt
I'm not playin
Tables turnt
Ya ***
gets burnt
Cocaine white as
Kobane Kurt
Brains won't stay
When a 12 GA
Blow em up
Like fireworks
Drugs and booze
Sex and candy
Pirex and brandy
Are awful handy
When you
can't withstand it
Gotta gas up
and expand it
Cloud 9 can cram it
I'm on a different planet
No I'm not stranded
I'm just not standin
Medication granted
Sedated feelings roll
Over everything I've known
See I know
I've felt alone
I've seen the snow
The grass won't grow
If the weeds take over
Where the flowers go
Showers of hope
The Air smells of roses
The towers doors
Won't open
Theve permanently closed em
The wind is blowin
Storms like clothin
Like a scar that bust open
A volcanic eruption
Some days i can't even function
It's the drugs that
Seduct me
Time spins
I have no luck see
What gives
Maybe if I
Drift off then
I'll be ok
Do u know
can anybody
Show me the way
Because the
darkness is
Around the way
The lights
fading away
I'm so tired
of feeling
This way
day after day
Wired but
won't play
Inspired but
colors grey
Happy goes away
Then it begins to rain
Man
What happened to me
Where'd I run to
Been spun around
So much
Like a gun that's
Trigger is stuck
What the
is up
In my world
The sky is down
the ground
is up
Sounds profound
But it
astounds me like
I'm struck...
By a bolt
Of lightning
Something
so frighting
Can be
so inspiring
Snow can't be firey
So 6 ft below
Can't be a diary
Copyright © Joe Coalson | Year Posted 2020
|
Details |
Joe Coalson Poem
I can't believe
Just to think
How we bounced
Like springs
Puts a smile
On my cheeks
No jewel not a thing
Diamond rings
so unique
Your eyes when
u look at Me
I just fall
I'm free
When You
look at me
I can't breath
just Brings me
to my knees
Your my everything
My kingdoms queen
And if it's not obscene
You be the drug
I Fein for the thing
That lingers like
A needle sting
I just can't stop
You the one who stopped
My ships sinkin
Thinking of you and
Baby you saved me
From an
early grave see
And I just don't know
Any other way
To repay the day
You graced me with
Your face
we kiss
It was rivers raging
Fires flaming
Yes
Addiction has staind
Me
so I know if
I'm not the
Same me
I'm the blame
See
Of the things
I knew the dangers fro
Never talked to strangers
But now we have
Been tainted
Like a disease
So tell me if not
Maybe we'll see
Ultimately
My baby
my wife
My life
the flame
the light
The igniter
to strike
Desire
In my soul
My souls fire
the only
Thing that
makes me higher
I'm inspired
by a designer
I've grown tired
Of her crying
Tears like creeks
So please
Let me
be a shoulder
For when
she's weak
A blanket of love
to hold her
When she sleeps
The tears on her pillow
When she wheeps
Sleepin I'll be the hero
Her saves her in her dreams
Let me Kiss her cheeks
When she's lonely
and needs the company
I'll be a light
to her path
In the dark streets
when she's alone
Make me everything
shell need
If she ever seen
bad things
Give em to me
n fill Her dreams
with clean
I'm pleadin
take away
her demons
Theres 5000 reasons
why I'm
Pleading
She's everything I've
Wanted seen
or Ever needed
For her Ill bleed
Pints gallons streams.
Copyright © Joe Coalson | Year Posted 2020
|
Details |
Joe Coalson Poem
Someone please
answer me
I'm gonna scream
I was weak
but Why'd
I hide Beneath
The streaks n stains
for weeks and days
Feel so week
For these things
I feel i
Reak of shame
So now These
streams of pain
Leak down
my face
every day
I day dream
of bein sane
So My Thoughts
See they lift away
Yea they Slip away lost
So I'm gone
I Drift away
things cost
In life
Im Siftn right
because the
wrongs lost
As This
Addiction clings
And These
drugs they boss
My Life sings
As death calls
Now all these
Right things
They feel wrong
Life strings on
But at what cost
I'm Strictly loss
I'm at a toss
Addiction
makes u soft
Keeps you lost
Make u scared
Itll bring
chills to air
to your hair
Those
Pills and snares
Like traps
Thier there
Times impaired
you collapsed
And Youd dare
Try n lash
Addiction
hard facts
It will
Make u snap
Drive u back
to the past
A Backwards lap
Thats Packed
with facts
Stacked with caps
You just crack
So the
The Points
And
Plastic tubes
That Joint
And the booze
Are your
Points to lose
Your Joints
arent glued
Your choices
didn't choose u
So you
come unscrewed
to conclude
Addiction
is hard but the
truth it's you
to blame
For your habit
Yes
Your to shame
Addicted
never to be
the same
Just lifted don't
refrain
things need strained
So as you put a drain
on a vein
To obtain
the sting
That sings
That clings
Someone
Don't ya see
The way itll
Make you Fein
you feel unclean
takes away your hopes
Takes away your dreams
Is it to late for me
to cease
Or is this disease
fate for me
Or
am I
Hooked like
Bait for open seas
I've painted
My own tainted
scene
For you all
to see
Addiction
stay away
from me
The time
and streaks
Ive Pushed it
up the stream
Addicted to addiction
On my knees
the faker of the sea.
Maker of all feins
Hater of all things
Addicted
Don't ya see
As predicted
with addiction we
Just Wanna
break free
Non the least
So keep
the beast
Keep
your own demons
In your sleep
when your dreaming
Silent the screams
there misleading
Speak up
for peace
addiction
Is now leaving.
Copyright © Joe Coalson | Year Posted 2020
|
Details |
Joe Coalson Poem
I love you
best bet
Ive been a mess
from the stress
I aint trying to fight
I just wanna kiss
I just wanna
hold u tight
I just want
Us to be alright
Everything to be fine
Girl your outta site
But i can't
Get u out my mind
Thoughts got me weak
Dear beauty
Why do u
Only visit in
My dreams
Yes as i sleep
Why do u make
Me fein for unclean
Things that creep
When im resting
Counting sheep
Its the only thing
That brings streams
Down my seams
Like a leak
Down my cheeks
I wheep
And I scream
These streams
Of feinded dreams
I mean
Nothing else is true
But my love for u
here for real
You the only drug
I feel
Drove me crazy
But its forreal
You amaze me
Feel like i been blazin
Purple haze n for
The rest of my days
Ill be blazed
Not changed
So amazed
The way your face
Lights up the room
When you walk into
Any place
Man outer space
Couldn't hold your grace
The shine of your soul
Resonates
Your as beautiful as heavens
Gates and angel I'll
Chase till I'm in my
Grave
I'm just so amazed
You've blessed my days
Please never leave
Just stay
Make the things
That have stained
My brain
and felt my heart
Full of pain
I try to refrain
But you're stuck
Like a needle
In my veins
Copyright © Joe Coalson | Year Posted 2020
|
Details |
Joe Coalson Poem
MOM
How ya been lately
Hopefully you
aren't medicating
I know lately
your heart
has been breaking
Death of ya man
ya Best friend
I understand
But mom
I can't stand
the way
You plan
over and
over again
to end ya life
I don't understand
you told us
death is
Where it starts
not the end
but don't
Let the dark in
the light
is best man..
But your torn
apart from
Memories of the
things that
Weighed happiness
in your heart
Centuries of plenty
sing they cling
To your soul n
bring you out
the unknown
Atleast
I've been told..
You're the one
who taught me
everything I know
So why
you letting go
you forgetting
I don't know
if I can be alone
I'll be froze
in snow or maybe
Ill dispose of my own
miserable existence
of a soul
Mom this road
you've chose
just goes
To darkness
light is disposed
So please
I plead
don't give up
if I'm alone
Ill be
so weak
so please
listen to me
Don't go
till god frees
Your life
do I have to bleed
Your the
best mom
life would
be so cold
If I lost
the only soul
that gave a
when I
Was alone
mom please
just trust me
I know
Your true
love is gone
yes its
tough but your
Stronger that that
so good thoughts
Ought to have
enough draw
for your pain
The times
you stumble
across the walk
And fall start
to crawl up
the hall
just to be
In a ball....
On the floor
crying and screaming
God
I cant take
This
This stress anymore
Seized up
locked joints
pain and suffering
for sure
I'm sorry for
your heart
The door isn't
open any more
but like water
in the ocean
leaking till
It bust open
with emotion
exploding corruptive
Corrosion
taking pills
just hoping
for death to
Come but your
eyes keep opening
God is showing
you your not ready
to go home
see so
much for us
in the trust
of the holy
So mom
don't go please
Just stay with us
and hold me
Like I was
in your hands
when they
were folding
Or when you
busted my ass
in times
of scolding
Just so you
know your right
about everything
you've told me
you've showed me
so mom
I'm ya
baby forever
But ill always
will be growing
promise you'll
get better
and I can see
my momma glowing
before the kingdom
of heaven opens
The gates if
I could see that
I'd be over joy n
Could see that
smile now
I'm ok
your with dad
don't give up
or feel trialed
Copyright © Joe Coalson | Year Posted 2020
|
Details |
Joe Coalson Poem
These days go by
I count the minutes
In the most important way
Its saved my faith
Keep me from unhealthy sinnin
I'll crave the essence
Of your loves presence
I'm Lost caught obsessin
In the daze of your face
Spinning I was lost crossed
To no ends
Lost in depression
Again and again
Repeadeted at most
I lost the cost
Was defeatment
No special treatment
My level head went
The cost I'd never win
That lustful thing
Kept me barreling tossed
Please know I apologize
For the dial tone
On the other side
Of the the line
Never mind I was lonely
I'll have you by my side
Building our home
Concealing old pride
The feeling of this
From my heart not my mind
When I was trapped in
My dome in my dark times
All along I had you
To keep me alive
The queen to my throne
Baby just know
I'm sorry for the bumps in the road
So babe just know
I've thrown the thing that
Killed me into the unknown
It's so much better to have you
Just thought you should know that I love u
Copyright © Joe Coalson | Year Posted 2020
|