Fate
Everyday,
I question my fate
Do I push,
this Issue do i wait?
The decades of pain.
I chose to Medicate in ways,
To forget your face.
I Stay dazed.
For all the ways,
All the days,
Memories in-vain
The torment and pain
so ashamed
Thoughts flowing
Like rain
in My brain
Tie my veins
I just blinked
And lost Everything
This Time and pain
The Guilt
and shame
It's insane its
the only thing that
links these trains
To their Tunnels
In my brain
my souls Stained
Hotter Than
burning flames
Im ashamed
I medicate
mySanity slips
away
this pain just looms
and loops on play
i live the death
of my own sealed fate
id appreciate if
id fade away
dicipate as i inticipate
a way to be saved
maybe one day
but fate shoves me
back into this
ing game
theres never a winner
no first place
maybe ill learn one day
whos to say
it blast off
lift away drift away
time to sedate
this rage ive caused
by hate time to medicate
So I poke the dopamine
Poke the dope in me
a rope round my throat
Hope is gone
the dope hangs on
can i keep doin this?
if so how long
i wanna move on
but im barely hangin on
yes barely
Look around
do you see
what I see
needle caps
From using daily
Abusing maybe
One day I'll be saved
From the evil thing
That's made me a slave
Made me misbehave
can i be forgave for
All the rage and hate
Pushed up my veins
I'm to blame
For the shame
my choices I made
Cant take em back
The memory is stained
So fight and strain
yes everyday
To stay away
atleast ya hope
That dope choke
me a rope
I dont know if
Its letting go
I hope so
so tired and alone
Itll expose your soul
Take tolls on you
Kills you so slow
Please help me
I need to know
If I can still feel
When the chills are gone
Or am I forever gonna
Feel alone
my emotions will be froze
they were left in the snow
whats the deal
I mean
Foreal...
no need
crying over spilled milk
Feel the pain
And it's so real
Copyright © Joe Coalson | Year Posted 2020
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