Fate

Everyday,
I question my fate 
Do I push, 
this Issue do i wait?
The decades of pain.
I chose to Medicate in ways,
To forget your face.
I Stay dazed. 
For all the ways,
All the days,
Memories in-vain
The torment and pain
so ashamed
Thoughts flowing
Like rain 
in My brain
Tie my veins  
I just blinked
And lost Everything
This Time and pain
The Guilt 
and shame 
It's insane its
the only thing that 
links these trains
To their Tunnels
In my brain 
my souls Stained
Hotter Than
burning flames
Im ashamed 
I medicate
mySanity slips
away
this pain just looms
and loops on play
i live the death
of my own sealed fate
id appreciate if
id fade away
dicipate as i inticipate
a way to be saved
maybe one day
but fate shoves me
back into this 
ing game
theres never a winner
no first place
maybe ill learn one day
whos to say
 it blast off
lift away drift away
time to sedate 
this rage ive caused
by hate time to medicate
So I poke the dopamine
Poke the dope in me
a rope round my throat
Hope is gone 
the dope hangs on
can i keep doin this?
if so how long
i wanna move on 
but im barely hangin on
yes barely
Look around 
do you see
 what I see
 needle caps
From using daily
Abusing maybe
One day I'll be saved 
From the evil thing
That's made me a slave
Made me misbehave 
can i be forgave for
All the rage and hate
Pushed up my veins
I'm to blame 
For the shame 
my choices I made
Cant take em back 
The memory is stained 
So fight and strain
yes everyday 
To stay away 
atleast ya hope
That dope choke
 me a rope
I dont know if 
Its letting go 
I hope so 
so tired and alone
Itll expose your soul 
Take tolls on you
Kills you so slow
Please help me 
I need to know 
If I can still feel
When the chills are gone
Or am I forever gonna
Feel  alone
my emotions will be froze 
 they were left in the snow
whats the deal
I mean
Foreal... 
no need 
crying over spilled milk
Feel the pain 
And it's so real

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