Dirt

Look
What is
the matter
With me
I'm not 
Myself 
my brain
Is scattered 
it's splattered
Like a
shattered mirror
Anything
that's ever mattered
Has left
me here
To deal with 
My own fear
I climb
the ladder
Because the
wheel won't steer
Please do
I go slow 
Do I wait
right here
Please tell me
How high 
does this go
I can't hang 
on anymore
I feel myself slipping
Wake up
on the floor
I must be tripping
But 
i'm not sure
I'm alert but 
My concern 
Is dispersed
That I'm sure
Is a lesson learned
In life ya
deal with love 
And ya deal
with hurt
You think twice
About situations that
Might put 
you in dirt
I'm not playin 
Tables turnt
Ya *** 
gets burnt 
Cocaine white as 
Kobane Kurt
Brains won't stay
When a 12 GA
Blow em up
Like fireworks
Drugs and booze
Sex and candy
Pirex and brandy
Are awful handy 
When you 
can't withstand it
Gotta gas up 
and expand it
Cloud 9 can cram it
I'm on a different planet
No I'm not stranded
I'm just not standin 
Medication granted
Sedated feelings roll
Over everything I've known 
See I know  
I've felt alone
I've seen the snow
The grass won't grow
If the weeds take over
Where the flowers go
Showers of hope
The Air smells of roses
The towers doors 
Won't  open
Theve permanently closed em
The wind is blowin
Storms like clothin
Like a scar that bust open
A volcanic eruption
Some days i can't even function
It's the drugs that
Seduct me  
Time spins 
I have no luck see 
What gives
Maybe if I
Drift off then 
I'll be ok 
Do u know 
can anybody
Show me the way
Because the 
darkness is 
Around the way
The lights 
fading away
I'm so tired 
of feeling
This way 
day after day
Wired but 
won't play
Inspired but 
colors grey
Happy goes away
Then it begins to rain
Man 
What happened to me
Where'd I run to
Been spun around
So much 
Like a gun that's
Trigger is stuck 
What the
 is up
In my world 
The sky is down 
the ground
is up
Sounds profound
But it 
astounds me like
I'm struck... 
By a bolt
Of lightning
Something 
so frighting
Can be
so inspiring
Snow can't be firey
So 6 ft below 
Can't be a diary

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