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Scarlet At Poem
Dejavu
The strumming of my guitar fills the space
The same guitar I played years ago
Our old high school T-Shirts cover our bodies
As the hot liquid touches our lips onces again.
You taste of tea and chocolate,
You feel like sweet memories and screams of joy.
Our skin is not as soft as it use to be
But much more resistant to life itself
And the others intoxicating touch
Cause we have longed for the other for so long
It almost feels wrong to give in
But how can I not when you look like my lost innocents
And feel like the lost time.
Dejavu clouds everything
Because we have done this so many times
In and out of my dreams
I have never forgotten what the small touches felt like
I have never forgotten you
I have forgotten something though, what it feels like to feel,
What it feels like to be alive.
I think that is why I give in to you after resisting running back so many times
Because right now I need to feel alive again
And if someone can do that its you.
It is your small touches and your smile when hearing that strumming of my guitar,
It is the sweet taste of your lips
And the clouds of dejavu
It is everything we did and everything I long to do again
It is my lost innocents and the memories we made
Those have brought me back so many times before
So they are going to again now
Because they have to
Because they are my last hope
Because I truly believe those can make me feel something
That you and our shared dejavu can make me feel alive again.
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I know that one day I won’t feel this way
I know that this summer will be a blur
When someone mentions the summer of 2019 I will smile absentmindedly and whisper that was a good summer
But I won’t remember your faces
I won’t remember the laughs and I won’t remember trying not to cry when i told you, a stranger, about how I starved myself
The night on the patio screaming Party In The USA will be little more than a blur of feelings and images
Sitting on my bed at 1am eating oreos with peanut butter and watching Netflix on my computer
My new giant TShirt hanging off my body as brown crazy waves fell into my face
And I smiled because I knew in the moment with my whole self that this is who I was meant to be
Also smiling cause I had eaten almost a whole package of oreos and I had just taken off my bra,
But mostly smiling about the knowing who I was supposed to be part.
I won’t remember you making fun of me for drinking to much coffee
I won’t remember that one girls amazing hugs
I won’t remember laughing at lunch and hoping hot girl would sit next to me and talk to me
I won’t remember feeling free with these people
I wish that i believed that i will remember how free I felt
Cause I've never felt that free before and sometimes I worry that I’ll never feel that free again
I know, I hope, I pray that I will
A lot changed this summer
I changed
Sure I did not have a hot steamy summer love
I did not get published or make lots of money
And I probably won’t see any of you again
But none of that matters
Cause I have never been more excited about my future
I know who I am and for ones, I know who I want to be
I want to be that girl who sat on her bed at 1am eating Oreos with peanut butter and watching Netflix on her computer
A new giant T Shirt hanging off her body as brown crazy waves fell into her face
Smiling cause she knows who she is
And she loves Oreos and taking off her bra
Except i don’t want to be her just for a second, I want to be her all the time
But I won’t remember wanting to be her
Cause i won’t remember ever being like that
All because I won't remember the details of this amazing summer
Only blurring memories and images of your faces
And tampered echoes of our shared laughs and conversations
Maybe it did not mean this much to you and it certainly won’t mean this much to future me
But it does know
And even if I don’t remember the details I will always smile when someone mentions the summer of 2019
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You are worth it
When you apologize I always say you are worth it
I have said those words so many times that they are losing meaning to me
I feel numb when I say them
Because once upon a time I meant them
But now I am unsure if you want me to mean them
I still believe that a beautiful love is worth a fight
I’m just not sure if ours falls in that category anymore
I’m not sure that we count as a exqisit, breathtaking love
I’m not sure we will ever be a exqisit, breathtaking love
I am not sure if you are worth losing myself for
I am not sure our love is special enough for me to be consumed in
You apologize often and always with the same words
You are worth it I always answer
But I cannot help but think,
Are we worth it?
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Eyes are the window to the soul
Yours are soft and sweet she whispered in my ear.
Her hot breath left goosebumps on my neck.
Yours are dark and mysterious just like you.
They are dangerous.
I could not stop those painfully honest words from slipping out of my mouth.
A coy smile devoured her face
Her laugh sent shivers down to my feet
If eyes are the window to the soul,
Why do yours scare to so much?
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I need you
I do not long to see your naked body
I long to see you fall asleep on my shoulder
I do not imagine your hot breath of my neck
I imagine feeling your heart beat when my head lays on your chest
I do not dream of sneaking off to have sex
I dream of sneaking off to listen to vinyls together
I do not want hot and heavy moments
I want sweet memories
I do not need your body
I need your company
I need your love
I need you
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I have fought so long for you
Over rivers and rallies
Over mountains and cliffs
Over those who say our love is forbidden
But the greatest fight has been making you want me
The greatest fight has been keeping you
Trying to prove I am worth it
That I am good enough to fight for
But I should not have to make you want me
If you do not crave me like I crave you
Then let me go
Tell me, my heart and soul beg you
Cause I am tired
I can not keep fighting on both sides
I would fight for our love forever
But I can’t keep fighting for you to want you
So want me
Or let me go
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