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Sarah Chachoute Poem
If I fall asleep
What if I don't wake up
What if I scream and no one can hear me
And no matter how hard I try, I still drown
The thoughts of this ever happening to me was frightening
But if I'm not the only one with depression
Why am I the only one dreaming of this
When I finally close my eyes, I feel like I'm being suffocated, my breath slowly fading away and my body still. No movement, not a single gesture.
The sound of rain pattering on the window pane
The crashing of trees hitting the ground
The street lights flickering from the heavy wind
And then there was me
Lying on my bed
With too much on my mind
Holding on to nothing more than my fear
I was forceful yet frail
I was still alive yet completely dead inside
I heard a loud crash coming from the floor below me
I sprung up from my bed and hurried down the steps
Everything entirely covered in water
Everything I owned was drowning
It would take me a long time to save the things that were most memorable to me
I had to do what I thought was smart
Though, I wasn’t thinking right nor smart
Save other things, Not myself…..YET!
Fix other things before I even worry about myself
One foot in, six feet deep, reaching for my stuff
I slowly drift to the bottom
Wrong Choice, once again!
I didn't know how to swim, I never learned
Never learned how to take care of my own needs
So I laid there flat and powerless
With my eyes wide open and a steady heartbeat
My body oh so cold with no feeling
My mind oh so empty with no clear thoughts
I felt paralyzed and useless
It was crazy how I was unable to save myself
But did I really have to
I mean, afterall, Wasn’t I just dreaming?
But if I wanted to stop my suffering in real life, then I needed to at least try
It took me awhile to regain my consciousness
My thoughts become somewhat clear again
I knew I had something to live for
I definitely could get out of this misery
I began to fight and fight and fight and fight
I felt a painful shock run through the inside of my body
It felt real, It was real
If I screamed nobody would hear me and just like that
Nobody did hear me
And no matter how much I tried
Nobody came to my rescue
This wasn't a movie
This wasn't a happily ever after
This was real life...Actual feelings, actual thoughts, Actually, me fading away
There was no more use for me to fight any longer...I tried
I wasn't going anywhere
I was just losing oxygen
I was wasting my breath
My precious breath
So I let my body fall once again and this time I didn't scream, I didn't fight and I didn't try
I could feel my eyes shutting, my heart stopping and all the thoughts that had been buried deep in my head were now erased
And all at once, everything shutdown
It was finally all over
“Here lies a young beautiful girl who died of depression, in her sleep as she suffered through many trials and tribulations throughout her life. She drowned in her sorrows, her pain and her agony. She drowned in a dream.” “Struggling one foot in six foot deep in the water you are already one foot in six foot deep underground.”
Copyright © Sarah Chachoute | Year Posted 2020
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Sarah Chachoute Poem
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A man of pure music
A man of liveliness
A man of titillating satisfaction
With his gentle touch
And his soft gaze
For this is a man who captivates all
A man who will fulfill your deepest desire through music
As he snatches the souls of the tempting ones
Making each moment more desirable than the next
They all yearn to be in the presence of such a striking man
Though he only has eyes for one
He makes body tingling glances with his treasure
As she proceeds to tease him back
By standing there gawking
With her untouched bosom and her shiny smoothed skin
Leading him to be infatuated by first sight
He studies her
Her voluptuous shape
Her stature
Her tune
He swiftly picks her up
As if she weighs nothing
And carelessly presses her against his chest
He places his firm hands around her petite body
Leaving her in a completely submissive state
He commences slowly
A moderately paced blues
He longs to know what her body lusts for
As he explores the depth of her tonality
With each strum
He exerts powerful waves of vibration throughout her body
While warm and sensual sounds escapes her luscious lips
She responds with exhilarating pleasure
Music to his ears
Music to all
But he mustn't restrict himself
For her body
This alluring instrument
Feeds him such thrill
He begins to play rapidly
For his finger pattern has changed
As well as the tempo of her sound
Now, a gritty, funky beat
With a steady, hip thrusting rhythm
Two bodies in complete symmetry
Becoming one with each other
An exchange of devotion
Two souls intertwined
Becoming one with the music
Reaching a peak
Releasing all temptation
Her beautiful body
This irresistible instrument
She blesses the eyes of all
He blesses the ears of all
As the music begins to slowly fade
And come to an end
He places a light kiss on her smoothed skin
Brings her to bed
And bids her goodnight
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Copyright © Sarah Chachoute | Year Posted 2022
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