All these feelings, Surrounding me
Where to go, i dont know
I don’t know what to do
what door to chose
which way to go
all this anger, all this toment
inside me, waiting, hiding
waiting for the world to see
what they’ve done to me
hiding from everyone
hiding from the world around me
hoping for someone to find me
to lead me through the right door
before i take the wrong step
before i end the pain iside me
the crazy i let in and keep inside me
all these doors, of black and white
it does no good to try tofind the right door
’cause all this torment will still be in me
hiding myself away
Waiting to be seen
to be shown the right door
to be free of the curse placed on me
Categories:
toment, anger, confusion, deep, emotions,
Form: Blank verse
The World Of My Mind
Such toment
Pain and anguish fills my thoughts
All caused by those I thought were friends
No one to speak to
No one wants to take the time to listen
Not that they would ever understand
I suffer alone in the darkness of my mind
It is a place of my choice
There is no one to judge me
No one to say that my ideas are wrong
No one to say that I am not thinking how society thinks
They may be wrong
They maybe anti-social but the thoughts are mine
It is only me making the decisions for myself
I am the one to condemn myself
That is the way I want my life to be lived
Me and my thoughts…alone
Alone until I choose to live differently
Categories:
toment, angst, depression,
Form: Free verse
How should I feel when the world crashes at my feet?
What am I supposed to think when i see my heart lost?
How do I hold on to my pride when its been a defeat?
What makes a man pick up and keep going even if he cannot take the cost?
And my whole world is spinning down beneath me.
I can still hear my soul calling because me needs me.
And I ask myself, even toment and harrass myself.
Only to bring me up and back down to the floor.
I don't understand this thinking.
Why would she rather be a whore?
But it seems all my life is linking.
And now my heart is burning.....right down to the core.
But I fight my tears.....a constant blinking.
Because I was sure I couldn't take it before
Categories:
toment, devotion, life, loss, lost
Form: Rhyme