Old sorrows return
years of re-runs still bruise me
ghosts I cannot hush
appear and glint in the dark
insignificant yet loud
I re-track to ask—
why did it unfold that way
what should I have done-
the past provides no answer
only revives of my doubt.
closure is a myth,
no band-aid can seal the wound
karma has no plot
the past is never prompted
the present no curtain call
better to own up—
it's not solved, over, done with
embers in ashes
needs care not to kindle them
go on with and without them
yet still I linger,
hand clutching unknotted threads—
I want to let go
but echoes cling like cobwebs
and knots retie in my grip
Categories:
retie, angst, anxiety,
Form: Lyric
Polly your a tart
and I knew it from the start
the quake in your bake is a major mistake
No offence can be your defense
or shake and remake that you're FAKE
So I know you'll understand
if I just vote for the MAN...
although now that I say it ...not so sure I can play it
cause his face is too tan and his nature....
not bland
The danger is real
takes no scientist to feel
that a bombing in the end
does not peace defend
Polly,
A winner you are not!
but let's retie the knot!
I will vote yes for you -my political ****
cause the other guys ....a full blown Earth endangering nut
Categories:
retie, corruption, crazy, political,
Form: Rhyme
Savour my hive of amenity
And remake what you cast aside
for you shall remain with me
Retie my veins
and relive the tryst
I dwell in two realms,
For the expansive universe
and for your communion,
See me as I am
orbiting around a mystic disposition
Shedding creed for frailty
Basking in magical pursuits...
Carve new hearts in me
and name them after us
And that’s
how to love me
Categories:
retie, love, me,
Form: I do not know?
When I was young,
I often clung,
to many little things.
I'd reach up high,
again retie,
my mama's apron strings.
I sometimes did,
what mom forbid,
although she'd make it clear.
Thoughts still linger.
I remember,
through each fleeting year.
Acquainted still,
her stories thrill,
with many left untold.
I can't go back,
though mem'ries track,
to years I'd rather hold.
I'm lost in thought,
it can't be caught,
despite my futile search -
mama singing,
mama bringing,
this small boy to church.
Though I was touched,
and changed so much,
through Christ, the perfect One -
I cannot stay,
time slips away,
from all that she had done.
I try to grasp,
and hands I clasp,
around those many things -
but mem-ry strands,
slip through my hands -
just like those apron strings.
I miss her so.
Emotions show.
There's moistness in my eyes.
I can't withhold,
though I am old,
my oft guilt-ridden cries.
Though sometimes sad,
I'm always glad,
whenever I think of -
my mama's cares,
my mama's prayers,
and her most precious love.
©2011 louis gander / ganderpoems.org
Categories:
retie, childhood, christian, inspirational, memory,
Form: Ballad
Meet Me in the Silence
Bleeding call
All my worlds fall
Too much suffering
Painful non-attending
I’m a mess
I’ve failed every test
I couldn’t possibly please you
There is nothing left to hold on to
Amazing grace
Retie every cut shoelace
I keep tripping on myself
I love too much the empty desired wealth
God please save me
Darkness is not the key
Myself I hate
I’m a messy love and you’re my mate
Capture me
Do it slowly
Grasp every wound
Don’t misunderstand me; my fate is not doomed
Feel my infiltrated beating heart
I’m in your arms don’t part
Blow through the weak defending desires
What I believe is true needs to be rewired
From what I think I love but don’t love I need saving
On top of me reality and imagination is caving
God send it all away
With you my heart wants to stay
Meet me in the silence
Let it be tense
Stare into my eyes
Shout the lyrics of my cries
Let me fall onto you
Let these tears be new
May they not be sad
This ongoing painful ride was the last one I had
Categories:
retie, life, love, pain, relationship,
Form: Rhyme
Not sure what it is
about this land
that grabs you
but I was grabbed
long ago.
Trip ends today,
last night I stayed up late,
sipping remaining whisky
as the red sun set
neath hill's dark shoulders.
Crisp morning
up before six
lake like glass
rustle up the fire
and make coffee.
Rest of camp
sound asleep
so I solo
cast the back bay
release a hammer handle
then troll the north shore
into a freshening wind
nothing.
Move out
to deeper water
perhaps a morning walleye
but the wind’s up,
and the sparkling sun
puts fish down
still nothing.
End of lake
head back
cast the shoreline
snag a bush
retrieve the lure
test line – it snaps.
Retie, change lures,
Tom got a good fish
in these narrows
but today
nothing.
Ignore my watch,
change to a deeper lure
last point, a satisfying tug
good pike – strong fish
open water, use net
she’s mine.
Paddle back to camp
with fresh fillets for home
and memories
of when the lake
and I were one.
Categories:
retie, nature,
Form: Free verse
Savour my hive of amenity
And remake what you cast aside
for you shall remain with me
Retie my veins
and relive the tryst
I dwell in two realms,
For the expansive universe
and for your communion
See me as I am
orbiting around a mystic disposition
Shedding creed for frailty
Basking in magical pursuits
Carve new hearts in me
and name them after us
And that’s
how to love me
Categories:
retie, love, relationship, universe,
Form: Light Verse
Finally
I’m forgiving you.
Making you the helium in my balloon.
Taking you into my lungs, once more.
Giving you one last chance,
to totally misconstrue how I say things.
before I retie it.
Send it soaring into the sky.
To associate with the cumulus,
manipulate the currents, navigate the wind,
then disappear into someone else’s back yard.
Categories:
retie, forgiveness
Form: Free verse
What part of I'm done did you not understand,
I told you to your face sure with a few tears.
But I was serious what part are you stuck on,
I don’t want to be with you, what is unclear?
I told you I was through with you,
Too bad for you if you don’t want this to end.
You'll always be in my life for our child,
But our quote unquote friendship I'll never mend.
Stop trying to hug and kiss me,
Don’t grab my face don’t ask for my touch.
Don’t tell me you want and miss me,
Your words honestly don’t phase me much.
Go find another you said it yourself,
You can do whatever you want nothings at stake.
You say she'll never leave you,
Your marriage she'll never break.
Never again will I kiss you,
No matter how long you stare into my eyes.
Unlike her I have a backbone,
The strings to our relationship I will never retie.
I never want you to touch or kiss me,
If I'm crying don’t wipe away my tear.
A relationship with our child is all you can have,
I want nothing from you have I made myself clear!
Categories:
retie, kiss, me, relationship,
Form: I do not know?