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I Take the Easy Way Out
What are you thinking about?
I've never had this much trouble
Reading--
You never let me in
And it makes me think
You're sick of me--
That you don't want me around--
The sound
Of another person--
A different guy
Telling me he loves me--
That he wants to be mine
It's so different and new
It almost has no meaning
I say "I love you too"
But do I really?
I never gave myself time to heal--
Time to recover
I like to think of myself
As a fighter--
As someone who is strong
But the truth is
I take the easy way out
If given the opportunity
I don't know what I want in life--
Or what my calling is
All I know is that you take away
My loneliness
And keep my mind occupied
I'm so afraid you'll leave me
Like I left him
So unexpected
So sudden
I just want this to pass
I want this year to be finished
So I can start over again
With someone--
And something new
I want to feel loved
I want to feel needed
I want to feel closer to you
I miss you
Copyright ©
Carly Bradshaw
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