Not over the fact that I am already over you
Yeah I did not congratulate on your birthday and forgot how old you got,
Yeah I did not made comments on the jacket you wore I always found beatifully,
Yeah I did not anymore admire your eyes and call them sun over ocean,
Yeah I did not hype you up,
Yeah I did not help you anymore out.
But I did once.
Because I cared of what you think.
Now I care of how I seem.
Even though I know I am trying to protect myself,
while ignoring and distancing myself from you is hurting me much more too.
From the look of your eyes, I see scare.
You don't know how to ecounter me anymore.
So you always ask your friends.
You try to seem chill, by saying: ,,Give the sheet paper to her, she has a beautiful handwriting" , even though you know I won't answer you anymore.
When I got the sheet of paper, you would wait, even ages till I let my pencil slide and you wait for better 1 minute to add and still say: ,,thank you"
I am sorry I am acting this way,
but I don't know what to say.
Since this day,
were I tried,
and you shut our conversation down that easily.
Were I couldn't even tell you ,,no", or see you suffer.
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Adna Demiri
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